Funeral

Im singing at a funeral tomorrow
For a kid a year older than me
And Ive been talking to his dad; it makes me so sad
When I think too much about it I cant breathe
And I have this dream where Im screaming underwater
While my friends are waving from the shore
And I dont need you to tell me what that means
I dont believe in that stuff anymore
Jesus Christ, Im so blue all the time
And thats just how I feel
Always have and I always will
I always have and always will
I have a friend I call
When Ive bored myself to tears
And we talk until we think we might just kill ourselves
But then we laugh until it disappears
And last night, I blacked out in my car
And I woke up in my childhood bed
Wishing I was someone else, feeling sorry for myself
When I remembered someones kid is dead
Jesus Christ, Im so blue all the time
And thats just how I feel
Always have and I always will
I always have and always will
And its 4 a.m. again
And Im doing nothing
Again