wanted you so bad

you know it’s hard for me to be around you
that night, it opened up my eyes, saw the real you
you’re so pure, have a heart of gold
you are the warmth in all the cold
i only wished that you didn’t know the real truth
what to do? can’t decide
do i cry? do i say i’m okay and try to mask all the pain?
comprehend all the times
hopes were high, played with me
everytime like it’s all fun and games
maybe someday there’s a chance you will feel the same too
you know i never really wanted you so bad
nowhere to run, never felt so trapped
i know that i could just forget all about this
my mind at war with my heart
to lose it or break it
am i building a wall just to break it
am i strong enough to hold it down
but with one look, oh no you got me now
staring at the black mirror, hope it lights up
my patience getting thinner, eyes slowly shut
see your name, like cocaine
man you got me high
grey to blue, how do you
make me alive
oh baby
you know i never really wanted you so bad
nowhere to run, never felt so trapped
i know that i could just forget all about this
my mind at war with my heart
to lose it or break it
am i building a wall just to break it
am i strong enough to hold it down
but with one look, oh no you got me now