Is Happiness Just a Word?

Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
黑暗在即將消逝的星光下降臨

伴隨著所有的鮮血和傷痕降臨
With all the blood and scars
我即將要去追逐尋找你的足跡
My mouth will hunt you
伴隨著恐懼直至我的出現為止

沒什麼能阻擋我
With fear - I appear
你了解我的

哪怕心已破碎身已疲憊，我也定將會找到你
Nothing will stop me
所以努力奔跑吧
You crave the creature in me
我的家人根本不了解我的過去

診斷二十年餘載卻從來沒有辦法
Shattered I will capture you
你可曾在迷茫中連自己都不認識？

永遠地不能去做你想要做的事情？
So run
我不想身邊的任何人參手我的事

更不希望我厭倦的人做到那些事
My family dont understand what I go through
這裡沒有明確的診斷能替你說明
Under diagnosed for 20 years aint never broke through
就連基本的生物學家都不能解釋（指的原理，達成人與人之間所願的交往交流固定定律）
You ever been in such a fog you dont know you
我像個觀眾一樣觀望著我的人生
Never being able to do the **** youre supposed to
即使擁有統治力也不能救贖自己
I wouldnt wish it on anyone that Im close to
這不是我靈魂扭曲在做天然實驗
Wouldnt wish it on anybody that Im opposed to
你以為你真的會了解我的感受麼，

我連沒發生多久的事都記不清楚
Theres not an accurate diagnosis to show you
虛無縹緲的場景似曾相識
Basic neurobiology isnt close to it
每個人都對富有耐心而身心疲憊

媽媽想知道為何她的孩子在地下哭泣
Im watching life as a spectator
不斷思考只會慢慢加重的我病情
I cant help myself even though I possessed data
講真我確實無法用言語去描述它

曾經有個醫生告訴我的心靈是讓人陶醉沉迷的
Its not a part of my spirit to want to test nature
但卻不能告訴我為什麼我的體內疾病會被激活
You think you know what Im feeling cousin then lets wager
黑暗降臨在即將消逝的星光下
Im having trouble retaining new information
伴隨著所有的鮮血和傷痕到臨
Familiar scenes starting to look foreign- derealization
我即將要去追逐尋找你的足跡

伴隨著恐懼直至我的出現為止
Everybody tired of being patient
任何事物都將無法阻止我腳步

我的內心裡將會是無比強大的
Mama wondering why her baby crying in the basement
哪怕心已破碎身已疲憊，我也定將會找到你

所以努力奔跑吧（追夢的孩子）
Constant rumination just exacerbates it
我的家人根本不了解我的過去
To the point where I cant even barely narrate it
但是我不想死掉，死掉就不能微笑了
Ive had doctors tell me that my mind is fascinating
睡眠能加快死亡，床對療傷沒有用了
But they cant tell me why the sickness has been activated
也許我真想死掉，死掉就不會疼痛了
Darkness comes beneath the dying stars
一種內在的與生俱來的空虛感

也許這是另一種罪惡的悲觀者
With all the blood and scars
可能我是一個驅魔人的小精靈

我在墮落因為我身處懸崖邊緣
My mouth will hunt you
也許就是媽媽對此的悔恨悲痛

也許這是一個神經系統的疏忽
With fear - I appear
也許這可以解釋水為何是濕的
Nothing will stop me
我的神經中樞相互鏈接處在哪？

但這些可能對你來說太過複雜
You crave the creature in me
也許我該冷靜一下來向你解釋

那些精神科大夫全是在愚弄你
Shattered I will capture you
Paxel.Zoloft. 你只是浪費藥物（前兩者是兩種藥物的名字）

我已經討厭了思考，厭倦沉默
So run
這對我心理扭曲病沒任何作用
My head dont work the meds dont work
你為何要告訴其他人他們心理是幼稚的

沒經歷過所處的痛苦為何要說他們幼稚
But I dont want to be dead dead dont work
我真的感覺不到我的身體器官在活動
Sleeps the cousin of death the bed dont work
這真就像我的行為不受大腦控制一樣
Maybe Id rather be dead; dead dont hurt
這種天殺的疾病摧毀了我的一切

除了意識和悲傷之外我一無所有
Realization of an inherent emptiness
黑暗降臨在即將消逝的星光下

伴隨著所有的鮮血和傷痕到臨
Maybe thats another sin for the pessimist
我即將要去追逐尋找你的足跡

伴隨著恐懼直至我找到它為止
Possibly I am a jinn with a exorcist
任何事物都將無法阻止我腳步

我的內心裡將會是無比強大的
Ive fallen because Ive been on the precipice
哪怕心已破碎身已疲憊，我也定將會找到你的足跡影踪

所以那些有夢想的孩子，請在最好的年華努力地奔跑吧
Maybe its my mamas possible regret

Maybe its a neurological neglect

Maybe its the reason why waters wet
The angular gyrus and where the frontal lobe connect

But maybe Im being too complicated for you

Maybe I should just be calm and explain it to you
The psychiatrist thinking they could fool you
Paxil Zoloft its just wasteful to you

Ive tried meditation tried to sit in silence

But how the **** that help a neurochemical imbalance
Why would you tell a person that they were childish
Without an understanding of the pain that they surround in

I always feel foggy somatic detatchment

Its like my body isnt connected to actions

It destroys everything thats affected the fragments
I dont have nothing but senses and sadness

Darkness comes beneath the dying stars

With all the blood and scars

My mouth will hunt you
With fear - I appear

Nothing will stop me

You crave the creature in me

Shattered I will capture you
So run