The wrong way

I'm lost
why did it turn out like this?
I was so full of myself
There is just nothing to proud in my arms

My mind's gone blank
It's serious empty
Where am I supposed to go?
I have to find
Before I lose everything

And now
you made me realize
It's a blessing in disguise
It's up to you whether believe or not
the time when the sun goes down and it becomes
entirely dark, entirely dark
please tell me the meaning
please tell me why did it
became like this if I am wrong
remember, It has just barely started

you made me realize
It's a blessing in disguise
It's up to you whether believe or not
the time when the sun goes down and it becomes
entirely dark, entirely dark
you made me realize
It's a blessing in disguise
It's up to you whether believe or not
the time when the sun goes down and it becomes
entirely dark, entirely dark
please tell me the meaning
please tell me why did it
became like this if I am wrong
remember, It has just barely started