crumblingsuicide note

I wish that I could find another way
咱們倆還有希望嗎
But I am not alive on any day
沒有你的每一天都是煎熬
So long before I
我真的希望
I wish you knew how I feel
你能知道我多愛你
About you, about you
我愛你啊
Don't think it's sad too, sad too
我一點也不喪
Suffer I'm glad too, glad too
我甘願為了你受苦受難
I'm crumbling down, I am so stuck in this town
我快要崩潰了我被困在這個小鎮裡
Life of a letdown, letdown
生活越來越爛
Jumping to get down, get down
我只想一躍而起
And I need some help
誰能不能幫幫我
As for it, no chance it help
你能不能幫幫我
Laugh at it, after we fail
我們分了他們笑我
But I can't get up again
我沒法再振作起來
Too soon more to show around
很快就有更多人來看我笑話
Five-cards wants to blow me up
我想出名
Falling is the best of fun
也想墮落
The last look at this gun
雖然不好但真的爽
Every room in my house is a ****ing mess
我房間亂得就像豬窩
I wanna paint the wall with a shotgun blast
我好想逃
Maybe that's what it takes to wake up my friends
想要交點朋友
Hope you know what you were missing then
你會想起我嗎
I wanna write a note that'll make my friends cry
我想給朋友寫段感人的話
Write a note that makes my friends cry
讓你感動到哭
Really makes me wanna take my life
我好想親手終結我的命
Take my life
死了算了
'Hey, umm... it's me
這就是我
And I don't really know how to say this, but...
我不知道該怎麼說
I don't think umm... I'll be coming home tonight
我今晚不會回來了
And I just wanted to let you know that it's not your fault
這些都不是你的錯
And I love you a lot
我很愛你
Uhh...
emmmmm
You know I've been thinking about this for a while
你知道我最近一直在想這事
And I... settled on it y'know so I loveyou.'
該怎麼說呢 我愛你