Car Park

I wonder if you saw that I was
Sorry for the beating of my heart
When it woke you in the car park
And maybe I should tell you
That Ive villainised my body for too long
Would it help you find excuses to move on?
Like I needed more excuses to be stronger
Im no mother
But Ive done a lot
To prove to those I love
That they are good enough
I dont believe in luck so I am giving up
Hope to find a reason for my
Fear of feelings leaving at the start
Makes my sleeping harder
I dont know much about you
So Im trying not to doubt you, but in time
I know youll let me down and that is fine
A feeling I cant shake, its getting stronger
Im no mother
But Ive done a lot
To prove to those I love
That they are good enough
I dont believe in luck
I dont believe in much
Leave it all to trust or start to give it up