The Witness Trees

I dont know what I need
Im scared of life, Im scared of what it means to me
This broken home is just not what it used to me
Too fast to slow me down
Too loud to drown me out
I doubt Ill ever get this ghost to what I was
Because Ive seen the grim design as I hold on
I hope you talk about the future when Im gone
But if Im wrong I know the reason why
I, I cant feel anything
I cant feel anything thats under my control
I, I wont do anything
I wont do anything thats out of my control
I can see myself
Extended past the limits of my cry for help
I dont believe Ive ever come this way before
So why do I know my way
What do I have to say and do
To drain that look of shame away from you
I knew wed never find our peace
Hold on, I hope you celebrate the best before Im gone
But if Im wrong Ill know that it was me
I, I cant feel anything
I cant feel anything thats under my control
I, I wont do anything
I wont do anything thats out of my, out of my control
I dont know what you need
Im scared of love, Im scared of what it means to me
This empty house is burning down around me
So cold I dont know why
So much for holding out
I hope I suffocate before I let you choke
On words you know Id never say
Oh no. dont go
I want you to destroy me one more time
So when I die
Ill know you really loved me
I, Icant feel anything
I cant feel anything thats under my control
I, I wont do anything
I wont do anything thats out of my, out of my control
Out of my control, yeah