Used To Be

I'm sorry that I showed up late
Ain't been keepin' track of time
I got so much on my plate
Trying not to lose my mind
Sorry if I said some shit that I mean (yeah)
I'm just tryna get back to the friend that I used to be
I'm sorry I don't let you in
It's a little dark inside
What would happen if you saw
Everything behind these eyes?
I've seen some things, I swear to God
I wish that I couldn't see (yeah)
I'm just tryna get back to the lover I used to be
'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see
And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe
And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me
I'm just tryna get back to the person I used to be
I'm sorry that I woke you up
Know I shouldn't do these drugs
Only you could understand
Just how hard I am to love
I know that you can still see the happy child in me
I'm just tryna get back to the son that I used to be
'Cause I'm throwin' punches at demons I can't even see
And I'm puttin' trust into things that I don't believe
And sometimes when I look in the mirror, it ain't even me
I'm just tryna get back to the person I used to be
Yeah, I'm just tryna get back to the person I used to be