Dont Do It

And I dont wanna live like this
我不想像這樣苟活
Im on my own
但一切都只能靠我自己
And I dont wanna leave right now
我也不想現在就匆匆離開
But Im all alone
但我始終一人獨行
Never thought Id try suicide
從未想過嘗試結束自己的生命
But my mind is a prison
但是我的精神就像一座監獄
Im peeking through the blinds
我在透過百葉窗窺視外面的世界
And I know my decision will be scrutinized
我知道我的決心將會受到審查
But you cant judge a man until you looking through his eyes
但是在你透過我的眼睛看到我的內心之前你不能隨意的評判我
Cause they wanna call me selfish
因為他們想叫我利己主義者
Wake up every day the same and I feel helpless
日復一日的在絕望的清晨醒來
Everyone around me telling me lifes precious
周圍的人都告訴我生命十分昂貴
But all I feel is pain so pardon me if Im skeptic
但我總沉浸在痛苦中，所以請原諒我如果我是個無神論者，沒有耶穌的指引
Ive been feeling sick
我將厭倦生活的一切
Sick of feeling worthless
厭倦自己是個廢物
Sick of acting like every days been so perfect
厭倦裝作自己每天過的很好
Sick of feeling pain
厭倦自己只會陷入痛苦無法自拔
Fake smiles on the surface
卻每天帶著虛假的微笑面具
Sick of waking up knowing I dont have a purpose
厭倦每日醒來卻對生活感到迷茫
And I dont wanna die, but I know its for the best
我不想英年早逝，但我知道在傳奇中隕落是最好的結局
Trying to find peace, but I know theres nothing left
想要尋找一片淨土，但我知道我留不下任何足跡
Only time I feel bliss is the moment of my death
我覺得天賜之福就是在我去往天堂的那一瞬間
Maybe I can finally smile as I take my last breath
在我喘最後一口氣的時候我會面帶笑容
Try to tun a page, Im stuck in the same chapter
想要翻到新的篇章，卻還一直徘徊在原地
Searching for some love, I aint finding what Im after
想要尋找真愛，卻怎麼也找不到
Swear these damn thoughts controlling me like a cancer
咒罵著這些像病毒纏繞著我的消極思想
Whats the point of life, I can never find the answer
生活的真諦到底是什麼？我一直都沒找到答案
Damn
艹
And I dont wanna make my mother cry
我不想讓我的媽媽為我流淚
But all the pain Ive been feeling is being multiplied
但是我一直承受著多重的痛苦
So when she finally comes to terms that her son has died
當我媽媽最終知道我的死訊之時
Tell her Im looking for happiness on the other side
請代我轉告她我去極樂世界尋找解脫了
And I dont wanna live like this
我不想像這樣苟活
Im on my own
但一切都只能靠我自己
And I dont wanna leave right now
我也不想現在就匆匆離開
But Im all alone
但我始終一人獨行
Cause I dont wanna feel this pain
因為我不想再嘗試痛苦的滋味
Id rather die right now
我寧願現在就去往天堂
I just wanna be okay
我也想就像什麼事都沒發生一樣
Oohohoh
嗚
Wait, before you make your decision
在你做好決定之前請等一下
Take a second, put yourself in your familys position
請花一點時間站在你家人的角度
Know you feeling like death is the only way but it isnt
我知道你覺得死亡是解脫的最好方式，但其實並不是
Know the pains hard but I swear its just here to visit
我知道你正經歷著無法承受的痛苦但我向你發誓這都會一晃而過
So please
所以求求你
Dont do it, I can promise that it doesnt help
不要做傻事，我能向你保證那樣做無濟於事
The painll pass, youre passing the pain to someone else
痛苦終將消去，你正在將痛苦傳遞給別人
You got a beautiful soul, Dont make em suffer
你有純淨的靈魂，別讓它承受煎熬
I know youll get through, I know that you got it covered
我知道你會將他們翻篇
Youre made special, kind loving and gentle
你生來特別，溫柔而善良
Even if you cantsee just know that you got potential
儘管你現在還看不到自己有巨大的潛力
I know you suffer through the day tryna hold composure
我知道你在煎熬之中仍然想要保持鎮定
But god gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers
但是上帝給他強大的軀體注入了堅韌的意志就像戰爭中的士兵
I dont wanna see the day that you fall apart
我不想看到你那些行屍走肉般的日子
So keep pushing, a fighter I know thats who you are
所以不斷奮進，我知道你是個強大的人
Even know you feel like you live with a broken heart
儘管你帶著心碎與憔悴生活
Just know the darkest nights make the brightest stars
永遠要明白黑暗之後必定將迎來黎明
And I promise it gets better with time
我向你保證時間的流逝會抹平一切
I know it doesnt feel like it but depression it lies
我知道他不是你想像的那樣，但是他也會令你沮喪
You deserve much more so just sever the ties
你本應該得到更多所以斷了那些愚蠢的念想
Between those toxic thoughts and youre intelligent mind
用你聰明的心智去對抗那些有害的想法
I know its tough when youre battling depression
我知道你和抑鬱作鬥爭是很艱難的
Its hard to fake a smile with the pain that youre suppressing
很難心裡痛苦卻強顏歡笑
Your mind plays tricks and it got you second guessing
你的大腦總會愚弄你這讓你總是對周圍的世界產生懷疑
But people care about you and need the feel of your presence
但是周圍的人都關心你，希望你能在他們的生活中留下印記
You got family they love you try to remember
你好好回憶，你還有你的家人，他們一直愛著你
I know you think youre nothing but in the mind youre a treasure
我知道你認為自己一無是處，其實在內心深處你是一箱寶藏
Times get rough and I know you feeling the pressure
時間的流逝會讓你感覺生活的艱難，我知道你一直倍感壓力
But Ive been through it too and I know that it gets better
但是我也經歷過這一切，時間會告訴你一切會變得更好
And I dont wanna live like this
我不想像這樣苟活
Im on my own
但一切都只能靠我自己
And I dont wanna leave right now
我也不想現在就匆匆離開
But Im all alone
但我始終一人獨行
Cause I dont wanna feel this pain
因為我不再想要承受這種痛苦
Id rather die right now
我寧願現在就去往天堂
I just wanna be okay
我也想就像什麼事都沒發生一樣
Oohohoh
嗚