wandering and wondering

I have been wandering and wondering
Oh, and I could not remember a time when you sounded so sad, sad
And I can't become the one who'll make you happy again
I have been talking with people at night
At night, people have told me that you've been looking my way
Why can't
I see through the dark aura you cast every time?
I wish for a time when my soul would not fall
I have been wandering, watching, and wondering
If you, you will be with me tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight
I, why have
I been out wandering through people?
Getting older, lying alone
You would think that
I have been lonely
But you have no idea
You cling to me with my forgiving call and
I wonderWhy
I cannot venture to guess why
I'm looking so down on myself
I have been wandering, wandering, and wondering