Paint (feat. Josh Rabenold)

Here we go, a simple question
Got it on repeat something like
They may never know who you are
If you just keep smiling
So I just keep smiling
Like everythings gonna be alright
Some times I just wanna go back home
And crawl back in the bed and go back to my childhood
In two thousand and two, I could still dream
Didnt need to
Never feel so see through
Scared of the present, past is a lesson
And now I wanna sequel. Everybody thinks they know me
Thats true, why am I so lonely?
On the outside looking in on my own reflections
Like whereve you been
Hey its me again, nice to meet again
Mister 'I dont want your help, I dont need a friend'
Think you got it all figured out, you dont
If you think time is gonna help you change, it wont
Both know, we can never get so low
Hide them with the thoughts
Which you write but you dont show
Its all good till you lose yourself
We both know the way that feels
Put it on your back so stressful, hold tight, dont let go
Break those thoughts to let go
Through that home you grew up in
Its not so simple
Look at them, so quick their judge, hate, admire and love
Anything and anyone you paint your picture of...

Im gonna paint you a portrait, Im gonna cover up the flaws
Youll only see what I put in the frame, hanging on the wall
Im gonna draw you a picture, of a man who has it all
Youll never see any of the pain, hanging on the wall

I'm tryna grow with the changes, rearrange my focus
Keep the surface clean but I mean when I change a view its like
Moving a paintbrush
So we all get the things that we dont wanna show
Its not easy to, come clean with you when I dont mean to be rude
But my skins so uncomfortable. I just
Wanna run, chase the sun around
Lifes been so dark in this town
How to tryna get up when youre so f**ked up and become so used to being down
When the drugs stop working
And the pains still present
Not as strong as I claim to be, Im just
Still here to deliver this message
Need to turn back, dont deserve that
Eventually this picturell turn black and Ill be ghost
You wanna seek everything that I tried to hide cause I dont confide in you
You just dont get it, Im too different so pathetic
Dont play but I feel so indebted, so ugly disconnected
Put it all for the world to see Im just
Dont wanna be told Im not enough
Stuffed all of the problems down
And I colored this cave with some broken crayons
Its all pain in the process, Im like 'Im fine I got this'
Change the topic, here it is. Ill paint the picture to leave you with

Im gonna paint you a portrait, Im gonna cover up the flaws
Youll only see what I put in the frame, hanging on the wall
Im gonna draw you a picture, of a man who has it all
Youll never see any of the pain, hanging on the wall

One day we can watch this fall apart and youll see me
Whats the point when Im scared to move
And I feel so low compared to you and Im sinking
I dont cry for help, I use the map
I draw myself and still pretend my love is not a broken compass
cause I know the feelings were still often felt in my numbness
Here waiting for this to develop
And living my life up under this umbrella, the color is gone
I know that its wrong
But I cant stop this, nah I cant face this truth
When I break it down and it never shows just know I did this all for you

Im gonna paint you a portrait, Im gonna cover up the flaws
Youll only see what I put in the frame, hanging on the wall
Im gonna draw you a picture , of a man who has it all
Youll never see any of the pain, hanging on the wall