chinese satellite

I've been running around in circles
我一直在原地打轉
Pretending to be myself
假裝我已成為自己
Why would somebody do this on purpose
為何會有人總是如此刻意而為
When they could do something else?
什麼時候他們才能放棄這樣的無謂
Drowning out the morning birds
清晨的鳥鳴被淹沒
With the same three songs over and over
被那三首反复吟唱的歌曲
I wish I wrote it, but I didn't so I learn the words
我希望我能夠寫下它但我並沒有所以我學習著這首歌一句一句
Hum along 'til the feeling's gone forever
隨之哼唱直到這樣的感受消失在腦海
Took a tour out to see the stars
巡演旅途中去看看繁星
But they weren't out tonight
但今夜它們都沒有現身
So I wished hard on a Chinese satellite
所以我只好對著一個中國衛星真誠許願
I want to believe
我渴求信仰
Instead I look at the sky and I feel nothing
而不是仰望天空心中空無一物
You know I hate to be alone
你知道我討厭孤獨的感受
I want to belong
讓我的信仰錯一次吧
You were screamin' at the Evangelicals
你在福音班裡尖叫打破了和諧
They were screamin' right back from what I remember
若我記得清楚他們也朝你咆哮了回來
When you said I will never be your vegetable
當你說我永遠不會成為你的最愛
Because I think when you're gone it's forever
因為我知道若你離開便不會再回來
But you know I'd stand on the corner
但你知道我會站在角落裡
Embarrassed with a picket sign
手裡舉著尷尬的抗議牌
If it meant I would see you
若這就意味著你我相見
When I die
只有在我死去那一刻
Sometimes when I can't sleep
有時候我整夜失眠
It's just a matter of time before I'm hearing things
在我開始幻聽之前我以為這不過是時間的問題
Swore I could feel you through the walls
我發誓我可以感覺你穿越過牆壁
But that's impossible
但這根本不可能啊
I want to believe
我只想要相信
That if I go outside I'll see a tractor beam
只要我出門便能看到那磁場
Coming to take me to where I'm from
牽引著我去往你的方向
I want to go home
而我想要歸家