Alive

I would lose so much if I lost you
I can't seem to make up my mind
Swear you're back to see if you can break me
And you will this time
Rip me off and give that blank stare
I'm not seeing much in your eyes
Leave me here to sit in this darkness
I'll be just fine
They can tell I'm going insane
Is there another way you would say it
And I think that I could finally die
Cause now I know, all it is to feel alive

You won't let me out of this nightmare
Cut me down the second i stand
I feel shame for everything i let go
My blood, my hands
No one sees the end when they're not there
I'm not sure that I would see mine
On my hands and knees and you don't hear me
Cause you're not that kind
They can tell I'm going insane
Is there another way you would say it
And I think that I could finally die
Cause now I know, all it is to feel alive