Atlas

You were
Only searching for love
Only found it in drugs
Get no love from the world
Get no help from above
And I'm awake on my own
Never sleep in the dark
I think I'm losing myself
I think I'm falling apart
I think you're crying for help
What am I gonna do?
I would help if I could
I think you know that it's true
And it wouldn't be hard
If we'd been friends for a year
But a decade and a half
I just wish you were here
And now we're 13 and you're up around it
And now we're 16 and you're all about it
And now we're 23, you can't live without it
I hope you live to see 30 but I ****ing doubt it
So I lie and say that I don't give a **** about it
I grab anothеr bottle and I ****ing down it
Don't let them see the way I feel on some poker shit
I'm just tryna heal, quit telling me to get over it!
Yeah, there ain' t no way of getting over this except for separation
I'll find a way to handle it, Im fighting hesitation
Cause I know youve faced abandonment
Couldn't watch you becoming a picture on my mantle, shit
We both know that's how it's gonna end
Stumbling around ODing on kolonipin
And that was four years ago, it's only gotten worse since
I told you it would kill you if you ever ** **ed with heroine
We haven't talked in year, I hope you get better
From I what I hear you're barely keeping yourself together
You got a couple homies hooked, you *** *ing trendsetter
**** my ex and expect me to say that it's whatever?
Look, it's comforting to know you're still alive
I hope you turn it around, I hope you live your life
Just know I understand it, I never wondered why
I just miss my friend, he’s been gone for a long time