I Hate Myself

Dont want the world to see me
Dont think that theyd understand
Everythings meant to be broken
Want you to know who I am

I see myself in the mirror, but I dont see nothing

If you understand what Im seeing please tell me something
When you black, the media make you wonder why
I need to learn...
My lifetime came from struggle
All Ive seen is what I follow
My skin color, automatic transaction
Im already classified, no second chance
Taught to feel nappy hands, little grade
Why cant I sag when its just a style
Grown beard, black hoodie, and Im all good
People judge before they even know me
Stare at me, dont know Im lonely
Outsides front these stares from police
And I get the bad rap because another man that just looks like me
Think lifes a movie like Spike Lee
Too cool like Ice T
Yeah, I move with Lifes Peace, and he move with the gun piece
So theres no peace
I gotta go to the hood, all I see is
Divided, the freshest schizophrenics
Men pimping women, people losing vision
Given choices before she started living
I hate myself

Dont want the world to see me
Dont think that theyd understand
Everythings meant to be broken
Want you to know who I am

I see myself in the mirror, but I dont see nothing
If you understand what Im seeing please tell me something
When you black, the media make you wonder why
I just need my history, becauseI hate myself
It makes me sad to see pimping like Im at a battle with my surroundings
Everybody do it, but not really
And I couldnt imagine my momma
Universal knowledge is karma
I see young girls hanging off the corner
And they searching for love in the wrong space
Gave her mind to a pimp, now hes changing faces
Sometimes I just wish I could trade places
I hate myself for being taught the roots of the hood
Which dont matter, no respect and no love
That got jailed for the real thugs
And Im sorry to all the innocent in prison
You get a second chance when you free or in heaven
I promise if you really love and you watch your steps
Respect everybody, man you will get blessed
Get your point across without violence
The black dying by the gun , Im tired of crying
I hate myself

Dont want the world to see me
Dont think that theyd understand
Everythings meant to be broken
Want you to know who I am

Im ready to give up my old thoughts
Ima move past what I saw
Ima do what I want and be happy
Im not gon rob or kill to survive
Everything Ive seen was a lie
Im not ready to die, I love myself
I said...
Everything that Ive seen was a lie
Im not ready to die, I love myself
Break that mental
You know we are free now man
Break that, uh, mental blockage
Dont think too hard, free your mind
Thats real life man
I just... you know speak for real
Shit, that really feel real shit, man you know
We all human, we all got questions
You know, Im designed this way and I got questions
Its all love over here, you feel me?

Like I said man, just livin
Yeah, but then I hear me tho
I said Im ready to give up my old thoughts
Ima move past what I saw
Ima do what I want to be happy
Im not gon rob or kill to survive
Everything Ive seen was a lie
Im not ready to die, I love myself
But I dont see nothin
If you hear what Im sayin please tell me somethin
When you-, the media make you wonder why
I need to learn my history, because I hate myself