honesty

我不好惹
Don't fxxk with me
真的
Do not fxxk with me
特別是現在
Especially right now, like for real
來吧
Yo, ayy
我最愛的9tails啊
Ayy, 9TAILS, yeah ok, whatever
我要爭取戒酒一周
I'ma try to be sober for a week (for a week)
但我卻輾轉反側怎麼也睡不著
Tossing turning, I been fxxking up the sheets (Fxxk it up)
我真的想要放棄了
Why continue when the future's looking bleak (So bleak)
還在勉強活著
Barely living and my chest is scaring me (Fxxk it up)
我可以給你你想要的關注
I could give you the attention that you seek (Yeah)
我能用我的歌幫助成千上萬的人站起來
I could help a thousand people to their feet (Raise up)
我能救得了別人但卻沒法自救
I could fxxking save a life but never me (Not me)
別試了因為你不可能救得了我
Don't you try cause there's no way you're saving me (I 'm all dead)
我呼吸時能感到心悸
I could feel heart palpatations happen when I breathe (Oh no)
我每次吃東西都能感覺到噁心
I could feel the acid climbing everytime I eat (Yeah)
他們告訴我說你不能這樣活著
They say it's a scary life, take this it'll work (Pills)
已經過去了半年我只覺得越來越糟
It's been half a year, and I'm only feeling worse (So bad)
醫生說我這是焦慮症
Residential doctors tell me it's anxiety (Yeah)
我求你了幫幫我吧
I could fxxking tell you that now get to helping me (Come on)
我好奇正常呼吸到底是什麼樣
I wonder what the feeling's like of breathing normally
不知道什麼叫快樂因為我從沒感受過
Can't identify the happiness when it's so new to me (It's true)
慢下來
Slow down
我現在不能抽煙
I can't even smoke now (No way)
我感覺日子過的越來越糟
I been on the same damn, come down (Yeah)
從去年的今天開始
Since this time last year
就是去年的今天
This time last year, this time last
現在是三月
March now (March now)
不管天氣怎麼樣我都不出去
Hot or cold, I never go out (Fxxk outside)
一周最多見我的朋友一次
See my friends like once a week at best
因為我沉浸在自己的世界裡
Cause I'm in my zone now
天冷的時候我就不舒服（9tails住在toronto）
I'm not myself when it's cold out
天冷的時候我就不舒服
(I am not myself when it's cold outside) yeah ayy ayy
我看見了陰影
I been seeing shadow figures
在我視線的角落
In the corner of my vision
我想我的朋友了
I been thinking 'bout my friends
以及他們所有的想法和感受
And all their thoughts and all their feelings
我不覺得他們真心喜歡我
I don't think they really like me (No they don't)
我很害怕這是真的
And that thought really frightens me (I know they don't)
但這種事也不經常有
I'm being honest and that doesn't really happen alot
也不經常有
(It doesn't happen alot) Doesn't really happen alot, damn
不經常有
(It doesn't happen alot) Yeah, It doesn't, It's true