unwanted lifestyle

[Chorus]
Im alive but Im actually dying
Loud but Im actually quiet
Hurt but Im tryna stay solid
Praying as I speed in this car
Shining but its actually dark
My headlights off as Im driving
Some peoplell kill for this lifestyle that I dont wanna live no more
I didnt even cry when Lil E died, Im thinking that my tears are gone
[Verse]
Heaven sent, I speed through the forest and I dont hear the tree
Flyer than a hornet but Im real as I can be, yeah
You can stay here or leave, yeah, I aint talking Tylenol
More water than Niagra Falls
Sold ******* outta mama house
When they turn the lights off, all of a sudden Im heating now
Got rich and now Im at my dangerousest
Window , I be hanging out, I love how that chopper sound
Sometimes I forget Im famous
All of a sudden she hit me back then she was dodging me
The dropoff would be quicker but we plan on parking these
Saint Laurent, Im dripping, *****, dont even talk to me
Shouldnt have to pay for your love but I was told nothing was free
How you wanna be me and I dont wanna be me?
Remember we was hustling backwards
Now I need six figures for my album
And I count that money with a passion
Try to hide that struggle with the fashion
And my jewelry rose gold like Jalen
Think Im at peace long as Im dying faded
My straitjacket Moncler, Im going crazy
[Chorus]
Im alive but Im actually dying
Loud butIm actually quiet
Hurt but Im tryna stay solid
Praying as I speed in this car
Shining but its actually dark
My headlights off as Im driving
Some peoplell kill for this lifestyle that I dont wanna live no more
I didnt even cry when Lil E died, Im thinking that my tears are gone
[Outro]
When they turn the lights off, all of a sudden Im heating now
Got rich and now Im at my dangerousest
Window, I be hanging out, I love how that chopper sound
Sometimes I forget Im famous