opposite of crazy

Growing up I was called thirty-three teeth, mm-mm
從小到大我都是多餘的局外人
'Cause my smile was the biggest in the team, mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm
因為我從來都是團體裡笑得最憨的那個
Football practice was my day of the week
踢足球就是我日復一日的動作
'Til the ball hit what I 've smiled with
直到有一天足球精準打擊了我笑臉對面的東西
But I smiled
那我也只能強顏歡笑了

Mom and dad never liked to shout in front of me
我爸我媽絕對不會在我面前大吵大鬧
We were seen as this perfect family, mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm
我們看起來就是傳說中的完美家庭
Until my dad threw the ring on the floor
直到某天我爸將戒指狠狠丟在地上
Didn't say a word
臉拉下來，一言不發
Mom just smiled as he walked away
他奪門而出，我媽只是淒淒地微笑著
She just smiled
她也就只能強顏歡笑了

Oh, oh
哦豁
But the opposite of crazy
但是瘋狂的反面(指刻意地控制)
Is still crazy,crazy
不照舊顯得瘋狂嗎?
Can't smile when I wanna cry
當我哭唧唧的時候又怎麼可能笑得出來
I am not a Gemini
我本來就沒有兩幅面具啊
But the opposite of crazy
那瘋狂的反面
Is still pretty ****ing crazy
湧動的不就是被刻意掩蓋的特麼的瘋狂嗎?

I wish It'd rain like It did ten summers ago
多希望自己能像十年前一樣用眼淚下場暴雨
When I just couldn't not let it go
當我萬分糾結剪不斷理還亂的時候
Flood my pillows behind pink doors
然後任由眼淚泡濕粉紅房門後我的枕頭
Like pink glasses, I hid behind to never show
就像粉紅的眼鏡，這樣我就可以躲起來
Any pain
不用在別人面前顯露傷痕

Oh, oh
哦豁
But the opposite of crazy
但是瘋狂背面隱藏的
Is still crazy,crazy
正是渾身解數去掩蓋的瘋狂啊
Can't smile when I wanna cry
在想哭唧唧的時候我又怎麼可能去笑啊
I am not a Gemini
我又沒有兩張面具
But the opposite of crazy
那瘋狂背後隱藏的
Is still pretty ****ing crazy
不就是特麼拼命掩蓋的瘋狂嗎?

(Ten summers ago)
(十年前的夏天)
I think that thunder coming out of my bedroom
我覺得當雷聲陣陣響徹我的房間的時候
(Ten summers ago)
(十年前的夏夜)
Was a cry for help to heal my young wounds
正是自己的求助換來了療愈幼小心靈創傷的良藥
(Ten summers ago)
(就是十年前的夏天啊)
But all I've shown and everything that you've seen
但是我外表展現的，能給你看見的
Was a rainbow
也就是暴風雨後的彩虹啊
Ever since
自從那時便是如此

Oh, oh
But the opposite of crazy
但是瘋狂的背面
Is still crazy,crazy
不就是面具下面掩蓋的瘋狂嗎?
Can't smile when I wanna cry
真的痛到要哭的時候我可笑不出來
I am not a Gemini
我又沒有兩個人格
But the opposite of crazy
但是瘋狂的背面
Is still pretty ****ing crazy
終究是理性克制的癲狂啊