sleep of despair

I can see around me in this lucid state
My own mind controls my real fate
But if I wake from slumber, then returns despair
Of the days depression, forgets the dreams
I share If
I sleep in peace do
I loose my sin?
Or does it linger to when the day begin
Ive been trying for so long now to avoid the crimes of mind
The things
I want, desire can it damn me from all peace
I lie awake and pray for sleep to take the sorrow away for now
In the dreams
Ill find new hope, will hope ever cure my ills?
I hear a womans voice is calling
A voice Ive never heard
I have no vision of her image
My dread is growing,
I dont know
If I even care to wake up
I know my fear will extend still
The inner workings of my mind
Can never sleep or calm my soul
The troubled waters of my world
Arent consumed by restful sleep
Now upon the mornings rising
I find lifes gauntlet carries on
In a building with no doorways
Escape can never be, reach out with emotion
Despair my only love
I find my way through the dreams of doom
Despair reaches out in the black of night
Embracing my lifes dream
I still resist/break the curse/my faith
Will live/where hope denies my peace/
And through revealed/ in fragments of my mind/
My will exists/to roam the corridors of life
I am the force,
Ive searched and sought so long
My name is his through ancient dreams may now obscure