Slipping Through My Fingers

Ive always felt like life was slipping through my fingers
So Ive always loved like I was running out of time
Since I was a kid, Ive been all weird and worried a lot
Guess I did my best to escape until I forgot

Its nothing like the movies
Its nothing like you think
Youll find me at the party
Crying at the sink
I know about that broken feeling when you say
'What a time to be alive'
To be alive, hummingbird

Ive always dreamt of picket fence and perfect teeth
I had no reason to believe in make believe

But I know about those mornings
That crying in the car
You swore you wouldnt do it
But you dived in after dark
Its really just a rebound
Its clearly just the space
Where you hide to feel alive
Feel alive, hummingbird

Pictures imperfect
But it never shows
Im playing the part Ive always known
To look alive
To look alive, hummingbird
To look alive
To look alive, hummingbird