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我臉上的笑容是如此的假，拿著槍我心中滿滿的安全
Fake smile on my face, feeling super so the safety off of my gun
但我卻不能告訴你它是如此真實，那刻我哭著尋求幫助，我不想孤單一個人
Can't tell it was real or a cry for help but I feel like if I don't make one
我始終如一地對她，但她將要追尋適合她的他，她拼盡全力，這次我要消失在她的世界
I'ma follow through, my girl gonna follow suit cause she tries every time I'm gone
上次外出，她弄破了她的手腕；這次，她暈倒了，摔傷了她的胳膊
Last tour, she done slit her wrists and this time she done OD 'd, blacked out, and broke her arm
感覺糟透了，便送她回去了
Feel bad, lyin' to her bout the coke I done
醫生說，如果我繼續喝可樂和威忌士，我將活不到38歲
The doc said if I keep drinking Coke and Crown, I won't make it to see 38
我喝醉了，嘔吐物沾在窗簾，地毯和地板上，
Then I'm wasted again on the floor in the hotel room with puke stains on the drapes and the carpet
要在早上八點鐘打電話
Gotta call at eight o'clock in the morning
我的孩子把鑰匙插進我的車裡，並開著車出了大門
So my boy took the keys to my car and drove it through the front door of an Exxon
警察突然出現，用手銬把他鎖起來，奈何他們有搜查令
Cops came and, locked him up, they said they had a warrant
如今我把我所有的旅行費都花在他的律師身上
Now I'm spending all my tour money on his lawyer
主啊，這是你送我們的一場戰爭
Lord if, this is you sending us a warnin'
我聽到它響亮而清晰，請上帝見證，我發誓
I hear it loud and clear and please God I swear
我不會再忽視他了
I won't ignore it anymore
這種類型的折磨，給了我們一種方式去悔恨
This type of torment is torture, but show us a way
我跪在那裡哭著祈求上帝，我聽到了他的聲音
On my knees and I'm screaming to God and I heard him say
只有當雨傾盆而下
It's only when it rains it pours
並能我能清晰地聽到大雨瓢潑的聲音
And I can hear the pouring rain
我感覺颶風猛擊著窗戶（哇哦）
It feels just like a hurricane just came right outside my window (Woah-oh)
有一天，當雨消失了
One day when the rain is gone
但暴風雨的雷聲繼續
The thunder from the storm goes on
我醒來看見太陽，它透過窗戶閃耀著
I woke up and I seen the sun and it shine right inside my window
我感覺興奮極了
And it feels like euphoria
某些孩子說他們到我這裡
Some kids are saying that they into me
他們告訴我，一切都是說說而已
They told me everything I rap about
感覺就像它同樣發生在他的身上
Feel like it happened to him identically
他在聽痛苦的愛的陪伴
That he was listening to Misery Loves Company
我希望，我感覺好像你
I'm wishin, Rittz I feel just like you
我想說我在學校是不合格的
I'm tryna rap and I'm flunkin' with school
在這個世界上我唯一真正關心的
The only thing I really care about in this world
是我的女孩和另一個傢伙
Is my girl and she been ****ing with another dude
我希望你能告訴我該怎莫做
And I was hoping maybe you would tell me what to do
我想放棄她
I'm tryna make it with the scraps that I have
為掙錢而努力工作
Working fast for the stack of some cash
但這使我失去了我原本的熱情
But it's like I'm losing the enthusiasm I have
試圖掌握一門手藝作為一個藝人
Trying to master the craft as a rapper
我聽到的是和爸爸在一起爽朗的笑聲
All I hear is laughter just got in a scrap with my dad
他刺痛了我的眼睛，使我的眼睛更加幽黑
He hit me in the eye, gave me blacker than bad
我一直想輕輕拍打著他的背
All I ever wanted from him was a pat on the back
我敢打賭，如果我死了，他會很高興
And I bet if I was dead he'd be glad
這樣互磨的生命，何時停歇
And the bass or mollasses, this is how life works
當你想要坐在底部
When you feel like you sitting at the bottom; You not
更好地胡說八道，它變得更加糟糕
Taking better ****, it gets worse first
必須扭轉消極的視線
Gotta reverse the negative eye
向上帝祈禱，不要相信被詛咒的命運
Keep praying to God and don't believe in a made up curse
告訴他，我向上帝祈禱
Told him that I prayed to the Lord
他說了這些話
And he said these words
只有當雨傾盆而下
It's only when it rains it pours
並能我能清晰地聽到大雨瓢潑的聲音
And I can hear the pouring rain
我感覺颶風猛擊著窗戶（哇哦）
It feels just like a hurricane just came right outside my window (Woah-oh)
有一天，當雨消失了
One day when the rain is gone
暴風雨的雷聲繼續
The thunder from the storm goes on
我醒來看見太陽，它透過窗戶閃耀著
I woke up and I seen the sun and it shine right inside my window
我感覺興奮極了
And it feels like euphoria
興奮
Euphoria
我們繼續喝著
We keep pourin' up
一大杯威士忌
A big enormous cup of Crown Royal
另一個聯合和信任
Puff another joint and trust
你要抬起我了
You're gonna hoist me up
當魔鬼想把乾草的尖端插在我們身上
When the devil wanna stick a pitchfork in us
或者想把我們送進熔爐直到我們融化
Or wanna burn us in a furnace till we boil up
上帝啊
Beggin' The Lord above
為了表現我們的悔恨
To show remorse for us
我們出生便幾近扭曲
We was born in a metamorphosis
如此不幸
Formed in something far less unfortunate
我們受到了太多的傷痛
We absorbed enough pain to push the rush
像刺一樣穿過我們的血管
Through our veins like a sting from a scorpion
我們感到羞愧，因為我們不能負擔得起
We ashamed 'cause we can't afford the stuff
我們想買到某種形式的愛
We wanna buy had to find some form of love
或找到一個準則，就夠了
Or find a formula, of course sure enough
你躺在一個地板上
You in a rut now, layin' on the floor in cuffs
他們說，暴風雨即將來臨
They say the storm is comin'
但閃電從未與我們產生共鳴，（因為他）
But the lightning never struck a chord with us (Cause he)
他告訴我當雨傾盆而下
He told me when it rains it pours
並能我能清晰地聽到大雨瓢潑的聲音
And I can hear the pouring rain
我感覺颶風猛擊著窗戶（哇哦）
It feels just like a hurricane just came right outside my window (Woah-oh)
但有一天，當雨消失了
But one day when the rain is gone
暴風雨的雷聲繼續
The thunder from the storm rolls on
我醒來看見太陽，它透過窗戶閃耀著
I woke up and I seen the sun and it shine right inside my window
感覺如此興奮
And it feels like euphoria