farther from home

I lay awake and look at the ceiling and wonder why
我躺下睡不著看天花板
Im so afraid to face all these feelings and want to die
想著為什麼正視這種感覺讓我害怕得想死
Im out of place and nothings appealing to stay alive
我不屬於這裡也沒有任何東西能吸引我活著
Why try to face it when its so easy to say goodbye
為什麼自己還要嘗試去面對稍瞬即逝的它
Its all unfolding,
一切都在變化
its so controlling
一切都把我束縛得那麼緊
It tries to pull me under,
它想把我拉下深淵
nothings going right for me
一切都顯得那麼糟糕
This tensions growing,
它越拉越緊
it tries to hold me
想徹底困住我
Hear me scream
聽聽我的嘶吼
Im taking over
我會接受一切
With my back to the ropes,
我抓住繩索的手
Im never letting go
永遠不會放開
Im moving closer
我向前爬
Everything that I know is feeling farther from home
只知道這是離家越來越遠的感覺
Im never giving in,
可我不會屈服
This world Im living in is losing color
我正在這個生活的世界裡褪色
Im taking over
我會接受一切
With my back to the ropes,
我抓住繩索的手
Im never letting go
永遠不會放開
I try to make the changes,
我盡全力去改寫結局
its so hard to sway my mind
任何事都動搖不了我的意志
There is no way to make it but to leave these scars behind
除了流血前進已別無他法
Within my thoughts are racing,
有時思維胡亂飛撞
Im too far away at times
讓我快要失去理智
I drive myself insane,
我逼自己發狂
its tearing me apart inside
這讓我從體內撕裂開來
Its all unfolding,
一切都在變化
its so controlling
一切都把我束縛得那麼緊
It tries to pull me under
它想把我拉下深淵
, nothings going right for me
一切都顯得那麼糟糕
This tensions growing,
它越拉越緊
it tries to hold me
想徹底困住我
Hear me scream
聽聽我的嘶吼
Im taking over
我會接受一切
With my back to the ropes,
我抓住繩索的手
Im never letting go
永遠不會放開
Im moving closer
我向前爬
Everything that I know is feeling farther from home
只知道這是離家越來越遠的感覺
Im never giving in,
可我不會屈服
This world Im living in is losing color
我正在這個生活的世界裡褪色
Im taking over
我會接受一切
With my back to the ropes,
我抓住繩索的手
Im never letting go
永遠不會放開
I take a deep breath down inside
我在肺裡深吸一口氣
I shake and try to breathe but I
我顫抖著呼吸
Hate the way that I lived my life
但我厭惡現在這樣的生活
And it seems
這看起來
All the lies that I try to hide
所有我試圖掩蓋的謊言
Remind me of what I left behind
都在提醒我所失去的東西
Unwinding thoughts inside my mind
放開思緒讓它爆發吧
Hear me scream
聽聽我的嘶吼吧
IM SCREAMING OUT LOUD
我在這大聲嘶吼
Its all just weighing on me
一切都只是想壓住我
Its all just weighing on me
它們只是想拖垮我
Im reaching out
我在拼命前進
Im screaming out loud
我在大聲嘶吼
Im taking over
我接受這一切
With my back to the ropes,
我抓住希望的手
Im never letting go
永不可能鬆開
Im moving closer
我不斷向前爬
Everything that I know is feeling farther from home
儘管只是感覺離家越來越遠
Im never giving in,
但我不會屈服
This world Im living in is losing color
儘管這個世界不再有我的色彩
Im taking over
我接受這一切
With my back to the ropes,
眼前的希望
Im never letting go
我不會讓它消逝
Im never letting go
我不會屈服於此
With my back to the ropes,
只要我還看得到希望
Im never letting go
就永遠不會褪色消逝