Misunderstood

Yeah I'm for real...
And that's that soldier s**t you know what I'm saying...
Now this one for the pain that I felt over the years
This s **t ain't been the same ever since a n**** was lit
Been too much on my brain make me wanna shed a tear
I be tripping, reminiscing but I'm thankful I'm still here
And I'm so misunderstood this that real soldier s**t
I never thought I'll see the day where I could go legit
I was just on the stroll with my cuzzo tryna flip
Sell over 30 minutes he said 'You need more than this' cause we swingin'
Better have your fire, I got my fire, this s**t get dangerous
I won't tell no lie before I die I'll go out banging
Just tryna survive but this is the life of a gangster
It be hard to believe that I made it this far
Made it when it was raining, boy that s* *t there left me scarred
Often reminiscing about Deja, that s**t hurt me to my heart
Blood drove my auntie crazy cause she died right in her arms
And I made it to the funeral but wishing that I didn't
I been dreaming about that casket ever since I seen her in it
I ain't tryna see no casket, I ain't tryna see no sinners
My **** * don't understand me and my family in they feelings
They say I might win a Grammy **** a Grammy I need a million
It hurt me that I hurt you can't believe the way I did you
I really thought that we'll be married move away and have some children
And I can't even explain it, that s**t be crazy
And I'm so misunderstood if I could ooh, then I would
But I don't get it, I admit it
Pain that I'm feeling, makeme wanna cry sometimes ooh
It make me wanna cry sometimes yeah uh
And I'm so misunderstood If I could then I would
But I don't get it I admit it while reminiscing
It make me cry sometimes, ooh oh
Lord knows I cry sometimes
That real soldier s**t though, you know that-that
That pain s**t don't go no where like you know what I'm saying
But sometimes I be in my feelings about this s**t
Am forever a soldier to soldier life, you know I'm saying
Thug to the bone, you know I' m saying