Difficult

My double vision
我視線的重影
Is only amplifying everything he isn't
只會放大他的一切不是
Till I feel less attached and bored to death but listen
直至極度依戀與無聊至極的狀況有所好轉但聽好
It's no one's fault, it's just my terrible condition
這並非誰人過錯只怪我狀況不妙

And I've been thinking if I move out this year
我一直在思忖若我今年搬出去
I'll feel my parents slipping
父母離我而去的失落將席捲而來
Away and also I 'm just scared of that commitment
而且我也擔心那種承諾
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing
有時我真覺得自己錯過了什麼

Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦我深知陷入不幸漩渦好似滿載苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我該踏上歸家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
為何卻深感舉步維艱寸步難行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒來我能隱於無形
I'd be someone no one knows
做個影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult
我大抵是不合群罷

To name this feeling
若要名狀這感受
Would take a hundred thousand years, some kind of grieving
得花費無數光陰某種悲傷瀰漫四野
But over what I never had, so I've been speaking
只為那從未有過的感受故近來我和心理醫生
To my therapist, I call her every weekend
交流了一番每週末都有給她打電話

I meant to tell you
我本想告訴你
How I've hated how we left things when it fell through
我極不願面對分手的難堪
'Cause you were everything to me, where did you run to?
畢竟你是我的一切你躲去了哪兒？
Was it something that I said that colored you blue?
是不是我說了什麼 惹得你憂鬱？

Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦我深知陷入不幸漩渦好似滿載苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我該踏上歸家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
為何卻深感舉步維艱寸步難行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒來我能隱於無形
I'd be someone no one knows
做個影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
我大抵是不合群不合群罷了

Difficult
難與人相處
Difficult
怪女孩一個

I've been drinking
而我借酒消愁
And staying up too late reliving bad decisions
熬更守夜回想那個決定
I thought eventually my ranting here would fix it
我以為原地咆哮能解決問題
I really think sometimes there's something that I'm missing
有時我真覺得自己錯過了什麼

Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦我深知陷入不幸漩渦好似滿載苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我該踏上歸家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
為何卻深感舉步維艱寸步難行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒來我能隱於無形
I'd be someone no one knows
做個影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
我大抵是不合群不合群罷了

Oh I know spiraling is miserable
哦我深知陷入不幸漩渦好似滿載苦痛的怪圈
I should probably go back home
我該踏上歸家路
Why does that feel difficult, difficult?
為何卻深感舉步維艱寸步難行
Oh I hope I wake up invisible
希望醒來我能隱於無形
I'd be someone no one knows
做個影子一般的人
I guess I'm just difficult, difficult
我大抵是不合群不合群罷了