something else

Sitting in my bedroom laying in the dark with the nightlight on
Sinking into my head, feeling so small, feeling so alone
I dont wanna bother anyone
I dont wanna burden them with all my thoughts
Its just not fair, Im out of touch
My mindsets toxic
Im losing my shit
Why do I always feel like
Im lost in thought, taking shots at myself and every mistake
Close my eyes, wait for sunrise so I can start again
Maybe one day Ill change
Praying one day it will fade
Im so sick of feeling this numb
Just want to feel something else
Standing at a party take another photo put my smile on
Everyones around me why do I feel like I dont belong
All of these people could care less about me
Empty conversations sometimes I wish I had just stayed home
My mindsets toxic
Im losing my shit
Why do I always feel like
Im lost in thought, taking shots at myself and every mistake
Close my eyes, wait for sunrise so I can start again
Maybe one day Ill change
Praying one day it will fade
Im so sick of feeling this numb
Just want to feel something else
Just want to feel something else
Maybe one day Ill change
Praying one day it will fade
Im so sick of feeling this numb
Just want to feel something else