Paid In Full

i was nowhere near ready when all it ended
我還沒有準備好的時候一切卻都結束了
so i hoped we could find a new day, cannot live without you
我多麼希望我們會重新開始，沒有你我活不下去
you gave me the chance, time and again, in vain
你給了我機會，一次又一次，那都是徒勞的
now my feelings for you, every tear, every smile, paid in full
現在我對你的感覺，每滴眼淚，每個微笑，都全部付清了
break the chain, but no longer can i take the pain
掙斷鎖鏈，我不再感到痛苦
it's hard for me to love myself right now
現在讓我愛自己很難
i've waited, hated, blamed it all on you
我已經等過，恨過，全都怪你
needed to be strong, yet i was always too weak
我需要堅強，但我總是太軟弱
so i can only blame myself for this state we are in
我對我們這個狀態只能責怪我自己
i will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late
我要拿走那些我曾經給你的，如果還不算晚的話
did you change? i did too. love can grow from the last grain
你改變了嗎？我改變了，愛可以從最後的穀粒中生長出來
it's hard for me to love myself right now
現在讓我愛自己很難
i've waited, hated, blamed it all on
我已經等過，恨過，這全都怪
you
你
i need you, less and less
我對你的需要越來越少
every day feeds this moral decay
每天都在滋長這種壞感
yet i have grown to love you even more
但我在愛你中成長
i fall back, and i turn another cheek
我退卻了而且我轉過另一邊臉
you mouth the words you're not ready to speak
你心不在焉地說著從沒想作過的話
you're scared of me now, no i never had a clue
你說你怕失去我，我一點也沒看出來
that i'd become so much stronger than you
我會變得比你更堅強
music ...
音樂
i will take what you have for me now, if it's not too late
我要拿走那些我曾經給你的，如果還不算晚的話
if you like, i will leave, i will not miss the last train again
如果你喜歡，我會離開，我不會再錯過最後一班火車
it's hard for me to love myself right now
現在讓我愛自己很難
i've waited, hated, blamed it all on you
我已經等過，恨過，這全都怪你
it's hard for me to love your face right now
現在我很難愛上你的臉
i'm waiting, hating, needing being
我一直在等，一直恨著
me
自己
i need you less and less
我對你的需要越來越少
every day leads us farther away
每天我們都越來越遠
from that moment
在那一刻
it's hard for me to hate myself right now
現在讓我恨自己很難
finally i understand me
最終我終於明白了我自己
one day we may have a new me and you
終有一天我們會有新的你和我
but first i need to learn to love me too
我首先學會愛我自己