Yak Thoughts

This aint even like sober thoughts, this is like Yak thoughts, man
Its like really real shit right now

Uh, smokin and drinkin, drinkin and smokin
Hoping for hope, but Im hopeless
Too much distractions, Im losing my focus
Too much pain, can barely notice the beauty in things
Too much mental commotion, man

Im tryin to get back to the way I was
Im tired of escaping, Im tired of the drugs
I be having these relations but be hiding my love (Damn)
And instead of chasin, Im like, 'That bitch is a dub'

Uh, feeling the need to keep my heart on freeze
Suffocating my feelings, instead of letting them breathe
Knowing Im hurting inside but act like shit is a breeze
Cause my heart is too heavy to wear that shit on my sleeve

I stand tall, but I sit on that throne like a Kween
Praying is the only time I ever get on my knees
These niggas really afraid of me, this is what I believe (Mm-hm)
You can hate, but dont play with me, I keep one with a beam (Grrr)

Paranoid, ever since I seen my brother dead (Damn)
Observing niggas, yeah, thats why Im always one ahead
Try and get these evil thoughts out of my ****ing head
It aint normal when you gotta bring your gun to bed, real shit

Damn
I cant even sleep without it, man
Thats a different type of paranoia, man
You dont understand that pain, man
That fame, man, that fame, man, listen
We still on timing, you feel me?

Ay, uh, told my fans to pray for me because Im losing it (Pray for me)
Aint just drinking the Henny now, Im abusing it (Damn)
I dont even get a buzz because Im used to it (Damn)
In other words, I feel numb, Im immune to it

The relationship with my Mother aint been good lately (Mama)
Thats probably why Im always fighting with my old lady (Yo, Mama)
And Im too thorough to ever let a hoe play me
If Im loyal and she cheat, Id probably go crazy (Facts)

Mentally been on my own lately (Huh?)
Man, yall dont know lately (Huh?)
Kinda been out of my zone lately

No shows lately, aint been on the road lately (Damn)
Gettin high cause Ive been low lately

All this COVID shit, Im over it (Facts)
This new election, I dont know with it (Mm)
Im kind of skeptical

But this America, you gotta, mm
Shut up and go with it
The government, aint no controlling it, huh?

Aint no controlling that, man
Huh, you just gotta live through it, man
Its life
Know what I mean
Its where we live, man

Uh, circle getting smaller, money getting taller
*** * who you are, Im judging you by your aura
No doorman, its Young M.A who open doors up (Facts)
I built my brand from the floor up (Facts)

Came from the bottom, made some hundreds
Then I doubled my commas (Mm-hm)
Went from wearing white tees, to cashing out on designers
But still rock white tees, still humble, I promise (Mm-hm)

But Im all about that green like Hennessy and Hpnotiq
Huh, Im like incredible Hulk when Im walking (Huh?)
If you talk about me when I see you, aint no talking (Uh)

I had a heart, then I lost it
Ive been hurt too often (Damn)
Playing defense with my heart
No more playing offense (Nope)

God first, I cant let the Devil get to me
I will never change if I keep drinking this Hennessy
But I would never lose, because I know this shit was meant for me
And bro I know you gone, but I still need you to live for me (Need you)

Its the realist shit I ever wrote
If I dont say it in my music, you would never know (Never know)
Like this 100 racks Im holding, I would never fold (Never)
Going back broke, thats a place Ill never go (Never)

Never going
Never go broke again
Could never lose
Told em, 'I could never lose'
Told em, 'I could never lose'
Told em, 'I could never lose'
Could never lose