Self Esteem

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
今天我把她的名字在心裡默念了數十遍
And practiced all the things I would say
反复練習我要對她說的話
But she came over
但她一出現
I lost my nerve
我就慫了
I took her back and made her dessert
我帶她去吃了甜點
Now I know Im being used
我知道我又被利用了
Thats okay man cause I like the abuse
但是沒關係我是個抖M
I know she playing with me
我知道她是在玩弄我
Thats okay cause Ive got no self esteem
但是沒關係我這人沒有自尊心
We make plans to go out at night
我們約好了晚上出去玩
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
我等到了凌晨兩點才失望的關燈睡覺
All these rejections got me so low
被鴿的感覺讓我很難過
If she keeps it up I just might tell her so
如果她一直這樣對我我會和她說清楚一切
[01:59.00]When shes saying that she wants only me
但她卻告訴我她只愛我一個
[02:04.00]Than I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
那她為何要和我的朋友們睡覺
[02:08.00]When shes saying that Im like a disease
當她說我的存在對她來說是一種折磨
[02:13.00]Then I wonder how much more I can stand
我開始思考我的底線到底在哪裡
[ 02:17.00]Well I guess I should stick up for myself
可能我需要多在乎自己一點
[02:21.00]But I really think its better this way
但我又很享受這種感覺
[02:26.00]The more you suffer
畢竟越是心痛
[02:28.00]The more it shows you really care Right?
就越代表我愛得深沉不是嗎
Now Ill relate this little bit
我不得不承認
That happens more than Id like to admit
發生事情已經遠超我的想像
Late at night she knocks on my door
半夜她又來找我
Drunk again and looking to score
喝了酒想撲倒我
Now I know I should say no
我知道我該拒絕她
But thats kind of hard when she ready to go
但她轉身離開的時候我還是覺得難過
I may be dumb But Im not a dweeb
我說自己不是個蠢蛋只不過是在自欺欺人
Im just a sucker with no self esteem
我是個沒有自尊心的笨蛋