I'm Sorry

Go ahead and call me a coward
儘管嘲笑我是個懦夫（從Joyner Lucas的朋友角度講）
And say that I'm not strong, because I'm not like you
說我內心不夠強壯只因為你我不同
Go ahead and call me crazy
繼續說我瘋狂
Cause I live in a maze, tell me how about you?
我生活在迷宮分不清虛實不如說說關於你的事
I think I live in my head
有時候覺得自己思想猶存
Sometimes I think that I'm dead, I hide behind my youth
可有時候又覺得自己如行屍走肉躲藏在青春闌珊處
Know I been losing my mind
知道自己失去了理智
And I'm a little behind, step inside my shoes
也跟不上各位的腳步想感受你看世界的角度
Cause I've never been happy with myself
因為幸福離我不止一步之遙
And I don't need no one feeling bad for me
我根本不需要別人的憐憫
Trying to offer me pity and throw jabs at me
想要給我廉價的同情在背後卻閒言惡語
Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me
想要給我人生的經驗在背後卻嘲笑不已
Behind closed doors, just close the door
關上房門只剩我只想關上門
Let me be by myself, just me and myself
做回最真實的自己只剩我自己
I'm tired of living, I cry
生而絕望我慟哭
I hear it's easy to die, I wanna see for myself
想要以死逃避現實只想活在自己的頻道
And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else
我知道所有人都覺得我瘋掉
But I'm depressed as fuck, stressed as fuck
但是我心中抑鬱在拉扯悲傷不斷蔓延擴大
Ain't no medicine that could cure what's the test as drugs
沒有藥能治愈我心中的傷
I mean, I need extra love
我需要更多的愛
And that ain't even enough, said that ain't even enough
可這只是滄海一粟
And where the fuck is God? (God, God )
上帝又特麼的在哪裡
Damn, maybe I ain't believing enough
也許是我的道行太差
But today we gonna see if He's real
但這謎題將會揭曉
And if He is, I guess I'm prolly going to hell
如果他真的存在那麼我估計將會墜入地獄
Look, I ain't wanna die like this
我不想以這樣的方式離開
I ain't picture my life like this
我夢想的生活也不該如此
They don't know what it's like like this
他們不知道我究竟是如何度日
Pretending I'm happy so I can smile like this, and laugh like you
假裝幸福掛上虛偽的笑容如斯像你一樣開懷大笑
Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you
有時候我想也許有一天我言行舉止都能像你一樣酷
Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like 'woo!'
終於能融入社會心中如釋重負
Or would you feel lost without me?
沒有我你是否會迷失自己
Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me
說真的沒有我世界也許會更加美麗
And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish
大腦在飛速運轉這條路終究走到底
Truth is I don't care how they feel about my feelings
事實上旁人是否理解我我不關心
I made up my mind, I'm going out like Robin Williams
我暗下決定要如同Robin Williams一樣離開
I guess I'm not the Ordinary People of John Legend
我猜我並非John Legend所說的芸芸眾生
And I've been suicidal since the day I was nine, shit
從九歲那年我就開始不斷想要了結自己
Okay, the day I was nine
九歲那年
I've been tired of being bullied, couldn't stay out the fire
不想再受人欺凌只想在自我世界裡存在
Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time
祖母告訴我也許我該放鬆我的心態
And dammit, look at me now, fuck
可特麼看看我現在幹
Fuck, pen runnin' out, shit, fu—, ugh
幹筆快沒墨了
Look, just know it's a new day
又是嶄新的一天
But if you reading this, then it's probably too late, blaow !
但當你讀到這也許一切無法挽回
Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
請別忘告訴我的至親別悲傷對不起
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
難挽回對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
想永遠沉睡對不起
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
生已無可戀對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
請別忘告訴我的至親別悲傷對不起
But it's too late, I' m sorry, so much weighing on me
難挽回對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
想永遠沉睡對不起
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
生已無可戀對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
I hope you got what you wanted
希望一切如你所願（從Joyner Lucas角度講）
I hope you finally happy, it's too late for you
希望你最後領略到幸福的意義對你來說一切太晚
Been going out of my mind
得知噩耗的我難以釋懷
You don't know how many times that I done prayed for you
你不知道我曾多少次為你祝福
I hope you hear me, goddammit
希望天上的你能聽見我的聲音特麼的
Cause I got so much shit that I wanna say to you
因為想跟你說的話攢了一肚子
I used to shine, now I'm all in the dark
曾經閃耀的我如今暗淡
I remember I used to tell you to follow your heart
記得我曾告訴你要追尋自己內心的想法
But goddammit, look at you now, it's all of your fault
但看看你現在一切都是你自己闖的禍
How could you? Maybe it's my fault
你怎麼做的出？也許這也是我的錯
I shoulda paid more attention to what you been doin'
我當時本可以更注意你的言行
Maybe I should have been more of an influence
也許我該做個更好的榜樣
I can't believe that you're dead, I fu-
我無法接受你已不在
I read your letter and all I could do is have mixed feelings about it
你寫的信我全篇通讀心中五味雜陳卻又說不出口
But I'll forever be attached to you, damn
但我永遠與你同在
Part of me feels bad for you
我為你的離去感到痛苦
A part of me feels like you weak and I'm mad at you
也怪你不該太軟弱走上絕路
And I don't mean to be insensitive
我也不是冷酷無情
But I don't understand how we couldn't prevent this shit
但想不明白為何無法阻止你變成這樣
You took the easy way out, goddammit, you did
你選擇了輕鬆的方式解脫特麼的你已不在
I mean, look what you did, I'm so fucking upset
看看你做了什麼我很難過
How could you be so selfish?
你怎麼能如此自私？
Nigga, how could you be so selfish?
兄弟你怎麼能這麼自私......
Now you're gone, you done left me so helpless
現在我們陰陽兩隔留我無助一人
I wonder what God thinks, I hope you in God's place
也許這就是天意我希望你在天堂
Behaving yourself
一切都好
Yo, what the fuck you gotta say for yourself? (say for yourself)
你還特麼的有什麼要為自己辯白？
Look, I really feel lost without you
你的離去真的讓我很痛苦
I hate the fact you think the world is better off without you
我厭惡你那套“沒有我的世界更美好”的屁話
And my mind's spinning, this is the line finish
大腦在飛速運轉這條路終究走到底
Truth is, I don't care how you feel about my feelings
事實上我不在乎你是否感同身受
And I'd be lying to you if I told you I'm fine, listen
那些問候背後更多是報喜不報憂
I know that you can hear me, all I need is like five minutes
我希望你能聽見我的聲音哪怕五分鐘就夠
I just wanna reach inside the casket and pull you out
多希望能把你從冥界拉回來
I'm sorry this is something that we both couldn't figure out
很抱歉這問題最終我們也沒能處理好
I wish I could hear you now, is your soul missing?
希望還能聽見你的笑你是否已魂飛魄散
I wonder if you could do it again, would you do it different?
想知道若時光能倒轉你是否會做出不一樣的決定
Tell me what death is like
告訴我死亡究竟是什麼狀態
Was it meant for you, brodie? Did the heaven support it?
你的死又是否有意義我的兄弟？ 輕生是否受到了天堂的批判
Are you fucking happy now? Did you get what you wanted?
現在你特麼的開心了？你是否如願以償？
Isn't this what you wanted? I feel the temperature falling
這不就是你想要的嗎？感覺內心已成冰
And you've been suicidal back then you were nine?
你說你九歲那年就有尋死的心
Yeah, even back then, you was nine
那時你還只是個九歲的小孩
We was living on the edge, couldn't stay out the fire
曾經的生活如履薄冰煩心事也不可能置身事外
Grandma told us we should take it one day at a time
祖母教導我們要調整好自己的心態
And damn it, look at you now, shit
但看看你現在
But it's a new day
但這又是新的一天
And if you can't hear me , it's probably too late, fuck!
如果你已聽不見我的聲音也許一切無法挽回幹！
Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
請別忘告訴我的至親別悲傷對不起
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
難挽回對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
想永遠沉睡對不起
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
生已無可戀對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
請別忘告訴我的至親別悲傷對不起
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
難挽回對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
想永遠沉睡對不起
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
生已無可戀對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
請別忘告訴我的至親別悲傷對不起
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
難挽回對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
I don't wanna live to see another day, I'm sorry
想永遠沉睡對不起
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
生已無可戀對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
Just make sure you tell my family it's okay, I'm sorry
請別忘告訴我的至親別悲傷對不起
But it's too late, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
難挽回對不起肩上的重任我承受不起
I don't wanna live to see another day, I' m sorry
想永遠沉睡對不起
But I can't stay, I'm sorry, so much weighing on me
生已無可戀對不起肩上的重任我承受不起 （翻譯參考的微博：Sadboyz)