i can't explain

You can tell me that you hate me, I don't really give a ****
'Cause I already hate me more than you ever could, yeah
Lately I've been drifting, I've been falling off the map
I feel this stress, I feel the pain
I smoke so I can stay intact
I can't explain
All these things that I feel
I can't explain
Why I do these things that I do
I can't explain
Why I do these things to myself
Lately, been stressing
More than you could tell, yeah
Ayy, ****, here we go again
Seven days a week
I'm tossing in my bed, yeah
I know, you know
Lost inside my head, yeah
I know, you know
I'm lying when I said that I'm okay
'Cause lately been shaking, been nervous
Been so afraid thinkin' if this is worth this
Smokin' out loud, I don't care for the name
Wake up ****ed up, everyday is the same
Get to the back ***** I smoke on a set
Faded so faded, I'm off of the gas
Sippin', I'm sippin' but don't sip no Act
Henney and Coke in my cup with some Jack
But most days just feel the same
I can't cope with this pain
****ed all the lies you say
Knew I shoulda stayed away
Yeah, I shoulda stayed away
But who's to blame?
Who's to blame?
Say who's to blame
Yeah you love to play this game
Tattle, even get away
This stain just won't wash away
Put a ****** through my brain
You can tell me that you hate me, I don't really give a ****
'Cause I already hate me morethan you ever could, yeah
Lately I've been drifting, I've been falling off the map
I feel this stress, I feel the pain
I smoke so I can stay intact
I can't explain
All these things that I feel
I can't explain
Why I do these things that I do
I can't explain
Why I do these things to myself
Lately, been stressing
More than you could tell, yeah
I've been stuck in all this darkness
I've been dealing with some **** shit
I don't wanna do this anymore
Most things I notice
I've been livin' life and I don't care about the outcome
You tell me that you love me
But I know that this won't last long (Won't last)
So stuck on someone who don't care
Always so stuck up in my head
(Won't you get out)
Leave me like chalk on a sidewalk
Leave me like chalk on a sidewalk
You never even loved me
Always tell me lies
Always family bullshit
Shoulda seen through the disguise
And every night
Grab the blunt and ignite
So damn ****ed up
Sick of living this life
Living this life
Sick of living this life
You can tell me that you hate me, I don't really give a ****
'Cause I already hate me more than you ever could, yeah
Lately I've been drifting, I've been falling off the map
I feel this stress, I feel the pain
I smoke so I can stay intact
I can't explain
All these things that I feel
I can't explain
Why I do these things that I do
I can't explain
Why I do these things to myself
Lately, been stressing
More than you could tell, yeah