bad apple

Ever on and on
I continue circling
With nothing but my hate
in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget
and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenly I see
that I cant break free-Im
Slipping through the cracks
of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain
and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am
who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I cant break free and
Maybe its a dream
maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldnt mean a thing
if I told you how I feel
So Im tired of all the pain
of the misery inside
And I wish that I could live
feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say
you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care
and my heart would never know
If I make another move
therell be no more turning back
Because everything will change
and it all will fade to black
Will tomorrow ever come?
Will I make it through the night?
Will there ever be a place
for the broken in the light ?
Am I hurting? Am I sad
Should I stay, or should I go?
Ive forgotten how to tell
Did I ever even know?
Can I take another step?
Ive done everything I can
All the people that I see
I will never understand
If I find a way to change
if I step into the light
Then Ill never be the same
and it all will fade to white
Ever on and
on I continue circling
With nothing but my hate
in a carousel of agony
Till slowly I forget
and my heart starts vanishing
And suddenlyI see
that I cant break free-Im
Slipping through the cracks
of a dark eternity
With nothing but my pain
and the paralyzing agony
To tell me who I am
who I was
Uncertainty enveloping my mind
Till I cant break free and
Maybe its a dream
maybe nothing else is real
But it wouldnt mean a thing
if I told you how I feel
So Im tired of all the pain
of the misery inside
And I wish that I could live
feeling nothing but the night
You can tell me what to say
you can tell me where to go
But I doubt that I would care
and my heart would never know
If I make another move
therell be no more turning back
Because everything will change
and it all will fade to black
If I make another move
if I take another step
Then it all would fall apart
Thered be nothing of me left
If Im crying in the wind
if Im crying in the night
Will there ever be a way?
Will my heart return to white?
Can you tell me who you are?
Can you tell me where I am?
Ive forgotten how to see
Ive forgotten if I can
If I opened up my eyes
thered be no more going back
Cause Id throw it all away
and it all would fade to black