Good News

Your long hair a short walk
你的长发扫过
My biggest fear and a slow watch
我惊恐地注视
The thin air my ribs creak
气压太低我喘不上气
Like wooden dining chairs when you see me
你看到我时 我的肋骨像木餐椅一样嘎吱乱响
Always scared
总是惊恐的结束
That every situation ends the same
每个你与我同在的场景
With the blank stare me in the tap water
我盯着水龙头哗哗流的水发呆
Circling the sink drain
看它打着旋儿流进下水道里
Because it's heavy
水很重啊
I'm trying really hard
我努力戒药
To keep my nose clean
让我的鼻子清爽干净
The blue out of my arms
让我的手臂不再青紫
But it's not easy
但是我做不到啊
It's not easy
太难了我做不到
When what you think of me is important
我太看重你对我的看法了
And I know it shouldn't be so damn important
我知道我不该这么在意
But it is to me
但是我控制不住我自己
And I'm only ever screaming at myself in public
每次我当众无端大叫
I know I shouldn't act this way in public
我知道我不该公然无理取闹
I know I shouldn't make my friends all worry
我不该让朋友担心我
When I go out at night and grind my teeth like sutures
当我走进黑夜牙齿磨个不停
My mouth like a wound
像是要缝上伤口一样缝上嘴
When I stay up and throw my voice about you
当我睡不着念叨着你时
Or less about you and more about how I ruined
或是念叨着自己是如何毁灭时
Everything I think could be good news
我想到的 全是好消息