Life of the Party

Walk into a room, poke holes in myself
Maybe no one can tell that I'm so uncomfortable
Make the way I feel the punch line of the joke
That I wrote in my notes, needed new material
And I'm getting attention, it's the only one second
I'm forgetting that I'm lonely
When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
But I don't even feel at home in my own body
How long can I keep this up?
Call it self-aware, while I self-destruct
Damn it, I'm being so dramatic
And there I go again, say I'm overreacting
Gave up on myself, I'm sorry
But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
Walk into my room
First thing that I see is the version of me, been avoiding forever
'Cause you're not any fun, they don't want you around
Dumb it down for the crowd, gotta keep it together
Push it off a little bit longer
And I'll come back for you when I'm stronger
Yeah, all I need is one second
I'm forgetting that I'm lonely
When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
But I don't even feel at home in my own body
How long can I keep this up?
Call it self-aware, while I self-destruct
Damn it, I'm being so dramatic
And there I go again, say I'm overreacting
Gave up on myself, I'm sorry
But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
But I don't even feel at home in my own body
How long can I keep this up?
Damn it, I'm being so dramatic
And there I go again, say I'm overreacting
Gave up on myself, I'm sorry
But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
I'm the life of the party
When I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party
Gave up on myself, I'm sorry
But when I'm at my low, I'm the life of the party