Alibis

From the scrapes and bruises
To the familiar abuses
I'll kick and scream
But it never changes anything
I could spill my guts out
Wearing my best little girl pout
I almost missed it
But nobody said this was gonna be easy
This is not the man
I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my,all my faces are alibis, and me
I'm half the man
I wanted to be
Most times it comes out wrong
I don't know the words but
I'll hum along
There's nothing familiar here anymore
To anyone or anything enough to feel alive
And I still taste that sickness
And it makes me crazy without it at best
But I'm in the same place
I used to be
But I'm trying harder not to be
This is not the man
I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how to word it
I just started to deserve it
And all my ,all my faces are alibis, and me
I'm half the man
I wanted to be
So what am I,what am I,so what am I
And all my
All my faces are alibis
This is not the man
I hoped to be
And I'm just trying to stop the bleeding
I don't know how the words go
I just started not to say no
Don't want it, don't get it
I know you won't regret it
Don't surface, don't surface
And I feel so damn worthless
Another day is gone
And all my faces are alibis ,all my faces are alibis and me
I'm half the man
I wanted to be