Lucky

It's lucky that I'm gonna be here for a while
I'm lucky that I just get to see you smile
Cus it's been a long time now,
Still on the pills, yeah I'm fearing that come down
It's funny that I don't get to see you leave
It's funny that you mean so damn much to me
Cus your not coming back now
A few piles a doubt just buried on your crown
Empty shell of who I used to be, no I couldn't see,
Ten feet in front of me, all my friends were so fake
Yeah in high school, just that kid in the back
I'm so awkward, couldn't socialize, I didn't know how to interact
Had bulky glasses and a really big nose, was bullied constantly
By people who thought they were better than me but there wrong
Where are they now, I don't really know, don't care
Got my real friends talking to me on the internet
Saw faces I used to love collapse they disappear
When I'm having problems and I just relapse
Cus that's tough luck, bad trust, yeah it's nothing new to me
Wake up, smoke lots every day feels like a dream
Standing in a crowded room, I still see your face
With every freckle that is on your cheek, sometimes I feel so displaced
I'm not wanted, yeah I get that
If you ever need me, you know where to find me, just call back
It's lucky that I'm gonna be here for a while
I'm lucky that I just get to see you smile
Cus it's been a long time now,
Still on the pills, yeah I'm fearing that come down
It's funny that I don't get to see you leave
Its funny that you mean so damn much to me
Cus you're not coming back now
A few piles a doubt just buried on your crown
Death always comes at times when you least expect it
I didn't mean to let you go, didn't mean to let you face is all alone
Just got too much for me,
Push me away then I will fall again
Again stumbling down these corridors
Don't know when I was happy don't remember those feelings anymore
Prescription ghost, floating in the backroom soaked through
Always said you were perfect and that I loved you
Doesn't matter now, the dirt's on your grave
Overdosing on sorrow can you tell me how to rewire my brain
I'm just that kid collecting dust on your shelf
I'm not perfect, yeah I know I was bad for your health
Standing in a crowded room, I still see your face
With every freckle that is on your cheek, sometimes I feel so displaced
I'm not wanted, yeah I get that
If you ever need me, you know where to find me, just call back
It's lucky that I'm gonna be here for a while
I'm lucky that I just get to see you smile
Cus it's been a long time now,
Still on the pills, yeah I'm fearing that come down
It's funny that I don't get to see you leave
It's funny that you mean so damn much to me
Cus your not coming back now
A few piles a doubt just buried on your crown
It's lucky that I'm gonna be here for a while
I'm lucky that I just get to see you smile
Cus it's been a long time now,
Still on the pills, yeah I'm fearing that come down
It's funny that I don't get to see you leave
It's funny that you mean so damn much to me
Cus your not coming back now
A few piles a doubt just buried on your crown