Comatose

I down cups of sludge
And stay up forever'
Cause I'm too afraid of what happens
When I fall asleep
Can't drift away
If you keep on holding tight
Trust me, it's not worth the fight
Baby I swear that
I don't really know if
I'm lying to you
Or hiding the truth from myself
And I'm sorry
I'm notBut you deserve to feel dumb
If you thought
I was somebody else
I know that you checked my pulse
To see if
I was freaking out'
Cause you were freaking out
But I remain comatose
From coast to coast'
Cause everyone
I care about
Is miles away
Can't figure out the words to say
That I made a mistake
It's not my fault
If I can't see
How you could fall so easily
And I am never going to be
What you saw inside of me
I'm thinking of
Reasons not to love you
Ways I can push you away
And it's safe to assume
When you step in this room
You should thank your stars for everyday
I don't really know if
I'm lying to you
Or hiding the truth from myself
And I'm sorry
I'm notBut you deserve to feel dumb
If you thought
I was somebody else