I'm Not OK

How would I ever know
岂会料落得如此下场
If I never tried
如果我从未尝试这样
If I never tried
如果我从未试图攻占你的心房
To look
爱上错误的对象
It's easy to blame yourself
只能责怪自己
For wanting something else
所求大于已有
Wanting something else
渴望更多的追求
Dreams start to fade away
甜美的梦开始消散
Become another day
成为昨日的童话
And then another day
以及曾经的臆想
Goes by
流逝，难再返
Can't seem to watch it past
却不能痛快地放下
Was never good at that
我从不擅长遗忘
Never good at that
从不擅长
Was I?
这，还是我吗？
I'm not okay
我过得一点也不好，陷于苦闷
With just leaving
只能选择去没有你的地方
Or holding back my words until I
或者将我真切的话语掩藏
Need them
直至我需要它们来吐露真相
I'm not okay
我过得一点也不好，困于回忆
With just leaving
只能离开去没有你的地方
Cause I love you too much
只因我爱你至深
I thought I was above
高估了自己的坚韧
I guess I really wasn't
我想我真的不是这样
I guess I really wasn't
我想我真的无须这样
A kiss is meant to fade
离别的吻已意味着这份感情的释然
And feelings go away
带走了我所有的感知和不切实际的幻想
And feelings go away
吞噬了我所有的眷恋和对一丝温存的渴望
But I'm not okay
我过得一点也不好，苦于未来
With just leaving
只能离开去没有你的地方
Or holding back my words until I
或者将我真切的话语掩藏
Need them
直至我需要它们来吐露真相
I am not okay
我过得一点也不好，陷于苦闷
With just leaving
只能选择去没有你的地方
Cause I love you too much
只因我爱你至深
And how would I ever know
怎会料落得如此这般
If I never tried
如果我从未尝试这样
If I never tried?
从未这样？结局会不会不一样？