Insane (Part 2)

编曲：Dansonn
混音：松夏
Lately I’ve been feelin’ little bit messed up
近来我好像把一切都搞砸了
Keep thinking they all stare at me scream in the dark
总觉得他们都在暗处看我歇斯底里
You think that I am a slut
你可能觉得我是个荡妇吧
You don’t know I wanna be hugged
但你不愿知道我只是想要个拥抱
Honestly I didn’t care ‘bout you that much
说实话，我也不是那样在乎你
Though I acted like I was so madly in love
尽管我表现出爱你爱得疯了一样
Funny you bought all the shit and started to swag
可笑的是你居然信了，然后开始得意了
Oh please, you are the last guy I wanna ****
摆脱，就算全世界的男人都死光了我也不会想和你
I feel so hateful when I wake up
当我醒来时我充满恨意
My mind distorted like psychopath
我的思维像精神病人一样扭曲
I feel so strange “why am I here?”
我对我为什么在这里感到很疑惑
Staring at the darkness now you are scared
一直凝视黑暗的你害怕了吧
No pride in my life
我活得没有自尊和骄傲
No one hears my cries
也没有人听到我的哭喊
But I won’t do it this time
但这次我不会那样做的啊
I gotta stay by my mama’s side
我得让妈妈放心啊
Believe it when I say
所以当我说我很好的时候
I am fine
请你一定要相信我
It seems too sad for me no one’s ever been
听起来好像挺悲伤的
Around me faithfully
从来没有人愿意和我真诚以待
Maybe I was mean
也许我太刻薄了
Been hallucinating
也许因为一直都有幻听
Now I think
现在我甚至觉得
Maybe our God is even hating me
也许上帝都是讨厌我的
So much toxic air
我说空气有毒不能呼吸
Is it safe to breathe
不安全
I take my pills
于是医生开始强制我吃药
Doctors they made me
一日三次，长期服药
I tried to forget
我尝试忘记他
Go our separate ways
各自过各自的日子
But memories just won’t stop playing
但记忆就像电影一样在我脑海中循环
No pride in my life
我活得没有骄傲自尊
No one hears my cries
也没有人听见我的哭喊
But I won’t do it this time
但这次我不会那样做的
I gotta stay by my mama’s side
我不能让妈妈担心
Believe it when I say
所以当我说我很好的时候请一定要相信我
Lori can you stop thinking about them
你能不能别再想伤心的事了
They don’t give a shit about what you are feeling
那些人并不在乎你的感受，你的喜或悲，你的内疚自责
You always take it seriously when you should not
你总是把玩笑当真
Now what? Aren’t you the only one that’s hurting
现在又如何？难道你不是唯一一个还在纠结还在受伤的人吗
Would you please please please please please stop crying
我拜托你别再哭了
Take your ****ing medicine
吃药吧
Go to bed
睡觉吧
Tomorrow is another day
明天又是另外一天了
I feel so hateful when I wake up
当我醒来时我充满恨意
My mind distorted like psychopath
我的思维像精神病人一样扭曲
I feel so strange “why am I here?”
我对我为什么在这里感到很疑惑
Staring at the darkness now you are scared
一直凝视黑暗的你害怕了吧
No pride in my life
我活得没有自尊和骄傲
No one hears my cries
也没有人听到我的哭喊
But I won’t do it this time
但这次我不会那样做的啊
I gotta stay by my mama’s side
我得让妈妈放心啊
Mama I am fine
别担心妈妈，我很好