not ok

Cause I don't feel much
我的心逐渐麻木
[Chorus]
我受够了这一切
I'm so done
宁愿闭着眼假寐
I'll wake up
这一切感觉不太对
I don't feel right
所以我逐渐麻木不仁
So I don't feel much
关闭对外界的感知
I don't feel much
我受够了这一切
Now I'm so done
再也不想睁开双眼
I don't wanna wake up
因为这一切太糟糕了
Cause I don't feel alright
所以我的心逐渐麻木
So I don't feel much
麻木不仁
I don't feel much
麻木不仁
I don't feel much
生活是如此令人崩溃和绝望
[Verse 1]
我独自一人
So broken down, no hope is now
心情低落 沉默不语 逐渐迷茫
Out of my head nobody now
我迷失了自己 迷失了自己
I was so dumb and down, I'm lost without
我自知我可能是那唯一一个没有目的瞎转的
I was so gone without, I'm gone without
卷起烟草 抽根烟
Well I know that I could be the only one running around
没有人烦我 就这样吧
Got my weed, I'm rolling up
孑然一身也挺好的
With no one to bother me, It's only up
我受够了这一切
With no one to bother me, It's only up
宁愿闭着眼假寐
[Chorus]
这一切感觉不太对
I'm so done
所以我逐渐麻木不仁
I'll wake up
关闭对外界的感知
I don't feel right
我受够了这一切
So I don't feel much
再也不想睁开双眼
I don't feel much
因为这一切太糟糕了
Now I'm so done
所以我的心逐渐麻木
I don't wanna wake up
麻木不仁
Cause I don't feel alright
麻木不仁
So I don't feel much
醒来发现自己倒在地板上
I don't feel much
这刺骨的寒冷 让我渴望床的温度
I don't feel much
在脑海里预演 子弹乱飞的场景
[Verse 2]
假想他们把我带到镇上 仅仅是为了包里那玩意
I just woke up on the floor
临别之情告诉妈妈我爱她 我会尽量早归
Cold as hell, I need a bed
对于脑海中的自我怀疑我闭口不提
Practice for the show, picture ******s in my head
但永远也忘不了我说过的话
If they take me to county for some shit inside my bags
我不断地想 想得太多了
Tell my mama I love her, I'll be back before the [?]
在这寒冷中我闭上眼
And I never could shut out all the [?] in my head
药物是我的救赎
And I never could forget all the shit I should've said
想到我的母亲 我打开酒 半瓶下肚 脑海里嗡嗡作响
And I'm overthinking thinking, over everything I know
父亲和母亲分开了
Eyes are frozen, keep em closed
我的弟弟 领养了一个儿子
Pills covered over us
我支持他
I think my mama start tearing up, half a bottle now I feel the buzz
我只想看到31 (象征希望的数字）
Her and daddy, they splittin' up
年轻时候我曾对Issac这么说
Younger brother, a doctor's son
告诉他们这都不算事
I just **** my baby mama
我受够了
I just want 2:31
宁可双眼紧闭
shit when I was young
这样的感觉很糟糕
Tell them that this shit ain't
我心逐渐麻木
[Chorus]
麻木不仁
Done
如今我已经受够了
I'll wake up
宁可闭着眼假寐
I don't feel right
因为生活太糟糕了
So I don't feel much
所以我逐渐麻木不仁
I don't feel much
麻木不仁
Now I'm so done
麻木不仁
I don't wanna wake up
Cause I don't feel alright
So I don't feel much
I don't feel much
I don't feel much