day 38 (prod. shon lindauer)

Day 38, can't make it
Counting scars like marks in the pavement
All the love in me turned to hatred
And beautiful things bring pain when
They're gone like we all will be
Wish I could kill my ****ing feelings
Stuck in this hell, scratched your name in the ceiling
Starting to think that this is really how it ends
Been 6 months since I've seen you
Hope you're doing good, yeah, me too
Things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
Then 10 years came and went so quick
Your first love's gone and got 3 kids
It took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this
And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe I'm meant to spend forever as a masochist
All I have left is in my head
A blank space with your name in it
Wish you would have stayed but I understand
I went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
Pulled out the pages inside my head
Felt what it means to see everything
And every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
But everything's hopeless and it's not so bad
Add another slash and run it back screaming
Day 38, can't make it
Counting scars like marks in the pavement
All the love in me turned to hatred
And beautiful things bring pain when
They're gone like we all will be
Wish I could kill my ****ing feelings
Stuck in this hell, scratched your name in the ceiling
Starting to think that this is really how it ends
Been 6 months since I've seen you
Hope you're doing good, yeah, me too
Things have changed so much and I've seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
Then 10 years came and went so quick
Your first love's gone and got 3 kids
It took so long but there's so much I've missed
I've learned life hurts but I love this