Callous

I lost my calluses for you
And you didn't even think to ask me how my day was
Now I'm leaving
I couldn't even count the number of times
That I let you in and I made myself small
Even though I smile throughout it all
When I look back
I can see myself slipping down
Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried
Heaven knows I tried tonight
I know it's not your fault
You were born with a spoon in your throat
And a gun in your hand and a plan for yourself
I'm not grieving
It's just a matter of time and a matter of what
And you've known since birth what you like
And I'm happy for you until my face is blue
When I look back
I can see myself so clear
When I look back
I can see myself slipping down
Tonight will be the night (Heaven knows)
Tonight will be the night (Heaven knows I tried)
Tonight will be the night (Heaven knows I tried tonight)
Tonight will be the night (Heaven)
Tonight will be the night (Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried)
Tonight will be the night (Heaven knows)
Tonight will be the night (Heaven knows I tried tonight)
Tonight will be the night