As I Was

Why I feel this way after all I heard you say
I see you walk away I should finally feel okay
I have nothing to gain if you came back still
I miss you so much
Never putting up again
With what I don't deserve
Better on my own
Then with your selfish love
And I wanna know
How you got me so down low
I turned a blind eye
Back then when I thought you loved me as I was
I'm tired of all of the pain I've gone through
You care for me if I play by your rules
You turned your back on me
And now it's forever you say
Never thought I could see this day
I tried my best but it wasn't enough
I hope one day you'll recall our good times
I split myself in two
Just to appeal to you
I just realized I have wasted my time
You said you didn't want it to end
Blame me for how it did end
No common ground is all you say
You just want me to beg you to stay
How could you expect me to beg you to stay
When all you do is bring me down when I'm okay
I remember times when all was right but
You want me to forget it all
Never putting up again
With what I don't deserve
Better on my own
Then with your selfish love
And I wanna know
How you got me so down low
I turned a blind eye
Back then when I thought you loved me as I was