Safer

I know that I have issues
我知道我有心理障碍
I face them I swear
我发誓我直面过它们了
Think I overcome them
但每当我认为我战胜了它们
Then turn - they're still there.
一转身 它们却还在那里
Wish that I was different
我也希望自己会变得不同
I'd like to let go
也想要放手
But when I try to change
但每当我试图改变
There's my past, saying no
我的过去就在抗拒这一切
Maybe it's all 'cause of dad
也许这都是因为爸爸
His new kids his new wife
因为他的新家庭
Or why not just blame mom
又或者是怪妈妈
Who's been nuts my whole life
一直对我神经兮兮的
When you've felt so alone since
当你自出生起
The moment of brith
就倍感孤独
And you're struggled to find
然后你挣扎着去寻找
Your own true sense of worth
自身的价值
When it seems there is no one
当这整个世界上
Across this whole earth
没有任何一个人
To depend upon
可以让你依靠
You carry on
所以你独自前行
Just like you always do
就像你一直那样
Cause it's safer to rely on you
因为依靠自己更安全
Oh, it's safer to rely on you
噢是的 依靠自己才最安全
Seen a million movies
看过无数次电影
All selling true love
都在鼓吹真正的爱情
Fantasies I'm not sure
和那些我
That I'm worthy of
自觉不配的幻想
Caution to the wind
偶尔也会铤而走险
My heart's been on display
把内心展示给他人
Still the end result is
但最后的结果
It's not gone my way
仍是不如我所愿
So when I date some new guy
所以我与
Who's a deadbeat or jerk
游手好闲的混蛋约会
At least I'm not so crushed
这样当感情没有结果的时候
When it all doesn't work
至少我不会万念俱灰
When you once unafraid
当你曾经无所畏惧
Wore your heart on your sleeve
毫无保留地敞开心扉
And the ones that you loved
而你爱的人
Chose to just turn and leave
却选择转身离去
Every day it gets harder to
每一天都在变得更加艰难
Somehow believe
但你要让自己相信
You will survive
你可以坚持下去
So you strive
所以你拼命抗争
Just to keep up your guard
只为了建起心防
Cause it's safer to hold every card
因为你知道掌控了一切才更安全
Oh, it's safer to hold every card
噢只有掌控这一切才最安全
I feel out of control
我感觉失控
I feel safe on the ground
感觉脚踏实地才安全
I go building up walls
我筑起心墙
Yet I wish to be found
但我仍然渴望被拯救
A true contradiction to which I am bound
我注定要这样自我矛盾
As I keep on spinning around and around
当我不停的自我拉扯
And I look at the people
又看向那些
Who've worked it all out
已经解决这些问题的人的时候
And I wonder why I'm still
我疑惑为什么我还是
A bundle of doubt
无法解脱
And sometimes I wanna just
有时我只想
Stand up and shout
站起来大喊
Just commit and deal with it
就勇敢作出承诺 去解决问题
Before your life flies by
趁你人生飞逝之前
Don't let your life fly by
不要虚度你的一生
But is it safer?
但这真的更安全吗
Maybe it's safer
也许我站在原地
If I don't try
会更安全