恶魔 freestyle

sometimes i really wanna die
有时我真的会怀疑自己为何而活
im asking god how do we survive
我询问上帝到底该如何生存下去
if you a real plz show me the sign
如果你真的存在，请给我个指示
how do i get this shit ouuta ma mind
我该如何把这些糟心的事情忘记
growing up i learned to hate on myself
成长的过程中我唯一学会的就是恨自己
trusting people just sat on the shelf
相信一个人仿佛变成了不可能的事情
no one cares bout my mental health
没人在乎我的心理健康
depresiion left me by my ****ing self
失落都嫌弃的想抛弃我
you know i sick of the game that you playing why u keep tourching us
我真的很讨厌你的这些考验不断地折磨我
i surrounded by demons,im only a human that you know i crave for love
我仿佛我被恶魔上了身，但我只是渴爱的人类
nono my life is lie my heart wanna die
我的人生是个谎言，我的心想要死去
angel in disguice
我遇到了乔装成人类的天使
and i ask him am i live
我问他我还有救么
he said im in hell and he point at my place
他说你已经身处地狱了便指向了我的家
sending me on fire
生活在火中
thats how im gonna die
这也许就是我死去的方式
devil ring the bell and he said he live in my space
恶魔总是提醒着我它无处不在
i dunno whats wrong my mind is full of hate
我不知道为何我的脑子里只剩下仇恨
lonely for so long time u take my heart away
孤独了太久你带走了我的心
living same day differnt person every day
活在同一天却是不同的人格
losing my taste keep on drinking lemonade
仿佛是去味觉就像一直在喝酸柠檬
blocking my road every time i wanna chase
每一次我想冲刺，胜利的大门就会关闭
living my low life fore i fade away
也许我只能过着下等的生活直到我离去
they said u need stay strong never keep u head down
他们说要坚强抬起头
when i post a song they treat me like im bad clown
但听了我的歌还要说我像个小丑
small house in a down town
在市区租一间最小的房间
gotta pay the rent all the bill got me going all frown
生活的琐事让我不断地难过
life is never easy and i know its simple fact
生活从来不简单我知道这是常识
how can u relate that my pain they full of tag
但你又怎能感受我这个被赋予标签的痛苦
im climbing on top of the mountain i hope i can stay on for while
我在努力爬上山顶并希望能够多呆一会儿
my herat is a rock on the montain and inside its empty its already full of a lie
我的心也想山上是的石头一样，只不过空心并且充满谎言
she empty my heart and she take away
她掏空了我的心并带走了我的爱
my love an she stay away from me
并且选择了远离我
and she stay away frome me
她选择了丢下我
shouldve stay on my lane stay friend now regret it
一开始我就应该保持距离做朋友，如今我后悔了
but i taking my self in the game like im in it
但我却太进入角色，忘了我根本不是主角
and i think i did this all to me
这一切都是我自己造成的后果
making myself hurt and its hard to breath
是我让自己无法呼吸的心痛
used to dont trust heart broke now i get it
曾经我不相信有人会为爱伤心现在懂了
now i can feel the stroke inside my belly
现在我感受到了裂腹般的痛苦
lately ivbeen praying for my life im so petty
最近我可怜的开始祈祷我能活下去
heart so soft like big bear teddy
脆弱的心情仿佛我是个大泰迪熊
maybe im so tired of all this fate
也许我只是受够了人们把坏事情当做命
none this real all of you is fake
如果这一切都是不存在的，那你们也是假的
seeing my recfleciton when im here by the lake
走到湖边看着我在水里的倒影
take a look at me i cant even feel my face
好好地看了一眼自己，感受到了麻木
they said aint no sun without the rain
他们说暴雨之后才会彩虹
theres no growth without the pain
也说失败是成功之母
how can i trust u when i have no gain
但我该怎么相信这些，我一直都是负负得负
sruggle couple days i cant maintein
挣扎了好几天，我不想继续了
only time i feel a alive when im living withchu
只有和你在一起的时候我才觉得自己有生命
maybe im so hype and my heart it dosnt fit yours
也许我夸大了这些，我们并不般配
guess i have to say baby nice to meet you
也许我该说很高兴遇见你就离开
life is full of lesson but they never teach u
生活充满了课程，但却没有人能教你
im so glad i didnt go thru all this by myself
我也很庆幸我没有一个人度过这些痛苦
devil on my shoulder stay with me nam in hell
因为恶魔在我肩上一直陪伴着我
going thru the strom and the feeling hard to tell
每天都在暴雪中生存，这感觉难以启齿
stay inside my dorm and i keep on taking L
只能偷偷躲在屋子里不断失败