My Bed

I thought 'bout tryna get through
Wishing I could make it better
But I choke each time that I do
Day and night, thinking about the times
When you were mine, I shoulda took my own advice
When I said 'if it's real, it's worth a try'
I got the words on the tip of my tongue
Know what I want, but I don't wanna hear it's done
How can I lose if I don't play along?
I thought 'bout tryna get through
Wishing I could make it better
But I choke each time that I do
Tryna keep it together
Sitting on my bed, on my bed
Thinking about all the things that you said
And I don't know what to do so I leave you on read, on read
Sitting on my bed, on my bed
Wishing you were here with me instead
I don't know what to do so I leave you on read, on read
But I've been thinking 'bout you, yeah
Yeah, I've been thinking 'bout you, yeah
I pretend and I tell all of my friends
That I won't go back again, that I'm ready for this love to end
But they know, that I'm just too scared, yeah
And if you tell me it's over, I think I'd lose my head
'Cause I take comfort in thinking you'll always be there, yeah
I thought 'bout tryna get through
Wishing I could make it better
But I choke each time that I do
Tryna keep it together
Sitting on my bed, on my bed
Thinking about all the things that you said
And I don't know what to do so I leave you on read, on read
Sitting on my bed, on my bed
Wishing you were here with me instead
I don't know what to do so I leave you on read, on read
But I've been thinking 'bout you, yeah
Yeah, I've been thinking 'bout you, yeah
Sitting on my bed, on my bed
Thinking about all the things that you said
And I don't know what to do so I leave you on read, on read
Sitting on my bed, on my bed
Wishing you were here with me instead
And I don't know what to do so I leave you on read, on read