Not OK

It's not like I chose this
这不是我想要的
I was not given a choice
但我别无选择
In a room full of stories
热闹的房间里
Mine is just another voice
我是另一个声音
How does she do it?
她为何能
Without making any sound?
缄默无言
I cry after hours
我在下班后哭泣
And scream when no one is around
在无人时喊叫
Here comes a battle
战斗开始了
Here's another uphill climb
是另一次艰难攀登
So strap on some courage
鼓起勇气
You should be well prepared this time
这次要准备好啊
Just because I'm still standing
因为我还站着
Just because I have survived
因为我幸存
Doesn't mean I don't get scared
我不是无所畏惧
Or wanna give up every time
或每次都想放弃
Cause I don't feel like being strong today
现在我不想坚强了
I wanna fall apart sometimes
有时我想崩溃
I wanna break
我想崩溃
Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say
下次问我，我会说实话
That I'm not ok
我不太好
That I'm not ok
我不太好
I don't feel like carrying all this weight
我不想背负如此的沉重
Or being broken around those who can't relate
被本就无法相处的人伤害
Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say
我会说实话的
That I'm not ok
我不太好
That I'm not...
我不...
After he left us
他离开我们
After everything went dark
一切都黯淡之后
She's all that matters
她成为了最重要的
She's my only little spark
我的微光
It's not like I don't want to
我也不是不想
Stay in bed, never leave home
瘫在床上永远不出门
But if I don't do it
但我不这么做
Chances are it won't get done
可能不会成功
Cause I don't feel like being strong today
我不想坚强了
I wanna fall apart sometimes
我想崩溃
I wanna break
崩溃
Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say
我会说实话的
That I'm not ok
我不太好
That I'm not ok
我很累了
I don't feel like carrying all this weight
我不想背负如此的沉重
Or being broken around those who can't relate
被本就无法相处的人伤害
Next time they ask I'll tell the truth and I'll say
我会说实话的
That I'm not ok
我不好
That I'm not ok
我不好
That I'm not ok
我不好
I'm not ok
我不好
That I'm not ok
我不好
I'm not ok
我不好
I'm not ok...
我不好...
God gives his toughest
予他坚韧
Battles to his strongest ones
最强的对手
Built out of courage
以唯一的孩子的形象
In the image of his only son
建立勇气
And I am a soldier
我也是一名战士
I can take the whole world on
挑战整个世界
So watch as I fight this
看我与之抗争
And give your praise once I have won
一旦我赢了，请赞美我。