i’ll be dead soon

Suicide on my mind, think about it all the time
****ing stuck, I ****ing cry
Don't deserve the lies I hide
Please, just get out of my head
Why do you always need to come back
Am I a bad person? I don't know
What happened to old me? I don't know
Wonder who helps me, it's you, ****ing dumb
Why make me insecure, hand me a gun
Yes you ****ing meant it, I relapsed for you
I hate you, I love you, I thought it was true