Jordan

Living like animals with no real shame.
如同不知羞耻的低等动物一般生活
Like creatures that exist that God didn't create.
如同上帝从未创造的异物一般存在
My body speaks to me and I understand.
身体传达讯息这些给我 而我也明白
It makes me say to it, "your wish is my command."
让我不禁说“你的愿望我都会努力去实现”
Like feeling tired but wanting to stay awake,
就比如心力疲惫却愿头脑清醒
or spending money to cover up a mistake.
或是花钱掩盖过错
Like running fast but always taking long breaks.
就好比健步如飞却时而长做歇息
Just like the feelings that she said she didn't fake.
就像她说她从未假意却也不曾真心
I want to see the best version of me.
我愿看见我最好的一面
The me that I know is not my friend at all.
我知晓的自己完全与我形同陌路
A man can trust himself to spend his life away.
那样一个我 信赖自己以荒废生命
Trust himself to drink 'till there's a smile on his face.
任由自己饮酒 直至久违笑容浮于脸庞
A drink can trust a man to have another sip.
而杯酒下肚便让人忍不住又小抿几口
A man can trust a sip to stop his trembling lips.
却坚信着小酌一番可止住嘴唇的颤抖
Like reading half and never open it again.
就如书读一半而后不再翻阅
Saying I was there when I ain't ever been.
说着我曾来至此地实际上却并没有
How I feel about the way God taunts.
上帝嘲弄我的感受我难以言说
The same is the way I give my body what it wants.
同样难以言说的还有我对自己听之任之
I want to see the way I want to see.
我愿见到我愿见到的局面
I'm all alone.
我孤身一人
I'm not my friend at all.
自己也非自己的友人
I'm dead to me.
我心已死
I'm just a body.
只剩躯壳
Is a man really alive if he can't control his own life?
若人无法掌控自己的生活那他还真实存活吗