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I see all kinds of moments, all times and zones'
Some out of focus, others the sharpest photos
I plan as god grins
Laying here while my rambling thoughts moshpit
On self destruction I was hellbent
To find a path out of it took 12 steps
Went down to 14th and 8th
Spiritual folks told me u gotta awake
Reporting live from a halfway house
Shit I’m only halfway out
Somebody pinch my arm for me
Life stings like a snake u can’t charm brody
But I don’t get bitter I get better
Heart of a champion bitch don’t be jealous
Minding my business, u should mine yours
It’s just a little timewarp
Sometimes I wonder why I keep going
I can’t really feel these emojis
I couldn’t see past 25
Thats all I planned 4, that quarterlife line
When all of that didn’t pan out
2 prideful to ask for help cause thats a handout
Self pity, oh the self pity
I can’t get what I want the world will melt with me
Did I lose the spark in my eye and my naivete
Or can u only be in ur dreams till' it be as it may?
Young mans thing this rap game
Maybe to color my locks, get a tat on my face?
I still debate conformity or chaos
But **** that, I gotta kick it like Neymar
Funny every time I think its the end of the road
Theres always that little thing called hope
Was blessed with astonishing sophistication as a teenager
Everybody believed in him, we all knew he was a brilliant kid..