Live for the fear (of pain)

Born without dying empty walk alone for a lifetime denied the spark of life forever missing a fear so vast it grows inside
Soul bleeding never healing at the end of the day my spirit leaving
Of all I own handful of a solid void what's left to give can't get rid of all this guilt blame myself for as long as
I live Shadow of the former me reach for surface can't break free
Blind, Cold,
Bitter <i>[sings "Desire" 1st time] from dreamfield to death wasted life on living suicidals see no reason for another breath
Still forsaken hope all taken keep on feeding the nightmares within
I see it clear still so tragic against frustration no one wins
Sinking deep into depression suffering the weight of confession
Upon the loss of a better fate laid out before me all pure hate